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| Tuesday, February 24, 2004 |
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001) Name: jiayi. 002) D.O.B.: 060488. 003) Location: yishun. 004) Religion: christianity is not a religion. 005) Occupation: student. 006) Contact: 90601463? musicgirlx@hotmail.com STYLE 001) Clothing: jeans + t-shirts for walking around. shorts + sleeveless for beach outings! semi-formal when i feel like! hahas. 002) Music: sappy, meaningful lyrics, praise and worship. 003) Make-up: nahhx. 004) Body art: nope. RIGHT NOW 001) Wearing: pyjamas. 002) Listening to: free. 003) Thinking of: tmr's common test. LAST THING YOU... 001) Bought: a packet of apple juice. 002) Ate and drank: chocolate biscuit + plain water. 003) Read: cheong's blog. 004) Watched on TV: can't remember. EITHER / OR 001) Club or houseparty: both are fine. 002) Tea or coffee: tea. 003) Achiever or slacker: achiever. 004) Beer or cider: anti-alcohol. 005) Drinks or shots: hehs? 006) Cats or dogs: both are adorable. 007) Single or taken: single larr. 008) Pen or pencil: both. 009) Gloves or mittens: mittens. 010) Food or candy: neither. 011) Cassette or CD: CD. 012) Coke or Pepsi: neither. 013) Hard or mild alcohol: neither. 014) Matches or a lighter: matches. 015) Sunset beach or the bold and the beautiful: both are beautiful. LAST PERSON YOU... AND WHEN? 001) Touched: mummy. 002) Talked to: daddy. 003) Hugged: babygirLx. 004) Instant messaged: kaihui? can't remember. 005) Kissed: babygirLx. 006) Who broke your heart: i brought it upon myself.so basically,not the person's fault larr. 007) Had a crush on: pig! WHERE DO YOU... 001) Eat: school lorrs. 002) Dance: in the house of God. 003) Cry: anywhere.because my tear will just stream down. 004) Wish you were: the place where i want to be in 18mths later. HAVE YOU EVER... 001) Dated one of your best friends?: hehs? 002) Loved somebody so much it makes you cry?: -dUh- 003) Drank alcohol?: i think i tried before. 004) Done drugs: NEVER. 005) Broken the law: many times. 006) Ran away from home: thought of but never. 008) Cheated on a test: who never?! 009) Had a nightmare/dream that made you wake up: i had a good and bad dream from yesterday until this morning. 010) Played truth or dare: yupps.common larr. 011) Flashed someone: hahas! yes! leng! 012) Mooned someone: what's that? 013) Kissed someone you didn't know: nope. 014) Been on a talk/game show: nope. 015) Been in a fight: nope. 016) Ridden in a fire truck: nope. 017) Been on a plane: nope. 018) Come close to dying: yes.spritually alot of times. 019) Cheated on your boy/girlfriend: i am still a pure girl.how to cheat? 020) Gave someone a piggy back/shoulder ride: definitely! piggyx! babygirLx! 021) Eaten a worm/mud pie?: yuckks! 022) Swam in the ocean: nope. WHAT IS... 001) The most embarrassing CD in your collection?: vicki zhao's. 002) Your bedroom like?: things i need. 003) Your favorite thing for breakfast?: seldom take breakfast. 004) Your favorite thing for lunch?: i rather don't eat. 005) Your favorite thing for dinner?: no interest. 006) Your favorite Restaurant?: the cafe cartel? i like their sofas only.hahas~ ARE YOU... 001) A Vegetarian?: nope. 002) A Good Student?: in the process. 003) Good At Sports?: yes. 004) Wakeboarding/snowboarding: nope. 005) A Good Singer?: i think so.hahas~ 006) A good Actor/Actress?: nope.my face shows everything. 007) A deep sleeper?: nope.unless i am desperate for sleep. 008) A Good Dancer?: nope. 009) Shy?: on some situations. 010) Outgoing?: yes. 011) A good storyteller?: not really. 012) Last words: move on! -bahhs- a dayy at home is quite boring~ from the number of times i blogg can tell already! hehes. she fluttered at 11:39 AM |
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wonderfully written..
God is like a magnificient scriptwriter..He has scripted out the play of life from the beginning till the end.He has drafted out every emotion, every thought, every action even before they were executed, every word before they are on each's minds or lips. He knows already who's going to turn back on Him, who's going to hurt Him.. He knows who will come back to Him..he knows the sheep and goat. In fact, there is nothing that He has created that He does not know.. So, we can be sure that the mode of our purpose is holy,good and well preserved in the archives of His well secured final drafts.Our plans r safe in His hands. The question is; at the end of the day..WHY did God even want to stage this whole play? In fact, theres few benefits to God Himself when He put in His blood (literally) and sweat into this magnificient creation..He experienced..more hurt, more pain, the sin of ppl belted down on Him at the cross.. So why? Why this entire episode? What is His purpose of creating something out of nothing (us) to 'torture' himself? He hates sin. He hates it with a holy repulsion, a fierce righteous anger. If we're not created..there'll be no sin, there'll be no hurt for God..no sorrow..no pain no anger..no cross. No excruciating pain..the pain of seeing your loved ones die away in sin.. the sin that He hates.. So why? Much of God's perceptions are different from ours.. God's nature is love, He IS love, He IS beauty..and when He created the heavens and the earth, the soul, the spirits, the beings, and when He allowed creation to happen and freewill to take place, He's also enabling His divine nature flow in His work. Did not God say that we are His most beautiful creation? He's not human. So what if He has to go to the cross to show us His love? so what if we're trouble? He still loves us. He created us for Himself only to love. He cares not about the trouble we give. His love and all of His thoughts are infinite..we can never comprehend totally..but all we can say is that He is not like us. Thats why He doesnt need a reason for creating something to love though He know it will eventually bring on even more pain n exceeding drama for Himself.Thats why we say God's love is great. GOD created something(us) out of nothing, simply to love. At the cross, in His pain, in His suffering, what was the final message that Christ was trying to convey? He's saying He loves you. 'heck' the pain and all. He doesnt care. cos He's love is greater. Greater than all these. And we're created to be loved. We, the silly fools who aint know nothing most of the time of everything that we think we know... are all created just for Him to love. ripped it off from cheong's blogg. she fluttered at 10:04 AM |
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i dreamt of something good.
the dream really makes me smile.. how i wish it is the reality.. but it is nott.. it was just a dream.. endless dreams.. she fluttered at 7:48 AM |
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| Monday, February 23, 2004 |
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i dreamt of something really bad.
its haunting me. my brain is bursting soon.. because i kept forcing myself to be strong when i have not heal the wounded parts. i kept telling myself that i no longer feel - until the first tear fell again.. it was then,i breakdown into tears.. that shows i am weak.. dreams go awayy.. she fluttered at 10:10 PM |
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within the few minutes
lies the decisions. "every minute,i am thining of how to walk the next step in my life.there are just too many decisions i have to make." xD i am loving 4devotion more and more as each day pass.the joy and laughter that each day we have,i simply love it! we are getting on tracks on our studies! *yeahx* today we got back our social studies and english results! we were all very delighted to receive our social studies paper! *wiNkz* only 9 failures and the top scorer among the 3 normal academic class is from 4devotion! *cLaPz to clareNce!* hehes.we beat 4blessing this time round.i could see the smile that ignites on mr lau's face,of course,my fella classmates! xD ohhmans! we had a tremendous improvement for social studies alrights?! we used to have 3/4 who simply fail or hack care for social studies! hehes~ thankks to mr lau too.sucha motivating teacher who never give up on us! however,we really need to buck up on our english! -sighs- we only have 5 people who passed the test! -shakes head- i am thoroughly displeased + discouraged by the marks that i had scored.simply yuckks! *tsk tsk* i shall do something about it before it is too late! hehs.mummy picked me up from school and we had lunched together~ nice + sweet mum i have (: feeling quite sLeepy now~ shall go and sleep and wake up later to complete my hmws + study for wed common test~ (x 4devotion rAwKz! she fluttered at 4:03 PM |
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| Sunday, February 22, 2004 |
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ripped it off AJ2's blog.
1. Name: jiayi 2. Nick: jiajia.AJ1.ah jia.xiao jia(given by shuf!).jia mao.jia fei mao 3. Middle Name: jia? hahas! 4. Hair: brownish black. 5. Eyes: black? 6. Height: 157cm. (shorty larr! -shakes head-) 7. Location: singapore.yishun! 8. Birthday: approaching soon! "6th april" oops! did i just say it? hahas! 9. Zodiac: dragon. 10. Status: single(physical) married (spiritual) [Favorites] 11. Animals: penguine.dolphin.dog.cat. 12. Sport: badminton.basketball.swimming.jogging. aiyarr.any sports larr! 13. Color: red.white.black.pink 14. Song: the moment.wo bu nan guo.eyes finally see.hologram! -beams- 15. Band/Singer: sun yanzi.jay chou.david tao. 18. Scent: rose. 19. Movies: horror.thriller.comedy [ twin effect.darkwater.school of rawks! ] 20. Holiday: close friends birthday + mine. 21. Season: any. 22. Element: fire? 23. Book(s): bible.the diary of a teenage girl.yesterday i cried. 24. Do you wear makeup?: nope. 25. Do you pluck your eyebrows?: yes.by my own hands during class lesson. hahas! 26. Do you look for personality or looks: personality(includes how much the person love me) then looks. *wiNkz* 27. Perfect gal: i'm a girLx! 28. How many rings before you answer the phone: normally quite fast. 29. Future Career plans: lawyer,teacher or musician? 30. Do you sleep with stuffies: nope. 31. Do you want kids?: yeahx! they are really adorable -grins- 32. Are you popular: should be. 33. Are you pretty: in the eyes of God but not man. 34. Do you have your own phone line?: hp you mean? 35. Do you get along with your family?: -beams- 36. Do you have any piercing or tattoos?: yupps.on the ears. 37. Giving hugs?: yupps.it comforts me greatly. 38. Taking walks in the rain?: -starts dancing in the rain- 39. The mall?: different malls different experiences and memories (: 40. Go on stage?: quite okayy larrs. 41. Drinks: anti-alchoholic! 42. Smoke: anti-cigrettes! 43. Drugs: anti-drugs! 44. Eat meat: yupps.i am so meaty! hahas~! 45. Date: depends with who and what we do. 46. Sex: female? hahas~ 47. Eat sushi: quite okayy. 48. Bake: so-so. [Preferences] 49. Hot or Cold: coLd -brr- 50. Lace or Satin: hehs? 51. Blue or Red: red. 52. New or Old: both. 53. Rain or Snow: both. 55. Wool or Cotton: both. 56. Rose or Daisy: rose. 57. Private school or public school: depends. 58. Plain milk or chocolate milk: both. 59. Celsius or Fahrenheit: celsius. 60. Spring or Fall: spring. 61. Math or Art: both. 62. One pillow or two: two.hehes! 63. Dogs or Cats: both. 64. Adidas or Nike: both. 65. Coke or Pepsi: plain water please. 66. Oranges or Apple: apple! 67. Deaf or Blind: neither.but will prefer blind.so that i can still enjoy the melodious music! 68. Pool or hot tub: both. 69. Blonde or Brunette: what comes out lorrs. 70. Guys or Girls: both. 71. Tall or short: tall! 72. TV or Radio: both. Personal Stance on... 73. Homosexuality: no. 74. Brand names: what? 75. Abortion: nope.whyy kill a life? 76. Religion: Christianity is not a religion. 77. Animal Rights: yupps. 78. Love at first sight: quite believe. 79. God: my strength.my joy.my everything! 80. Aliens: freaks! 81. Horoscopes: aries? 82. Heaven: the cool place. 83. Hell: the hot place. 84. Reincarnation: nope. 85. Transvestites: hehs. 86. Boy Bands: okayy larr. 87. Rap: cool. 88. 80's music: hmms. 89. Punk: fine~ 90. Whats the prettiest instrument(s)?: pianos and guitars.they melts my heart. 91. Whats the prettiest part of the body?: i think overall matters. 92. Biggest fault: do not know how to treasure the friend whom i just lose -sighs- 93. Biggest fears: to be lost in this world. 94. Do you live in the moment?: i think so. 95. Do you care about looks?: yes.but i have no looks! hahas. 96. Do you like your handwriting?: not bad larr.must see compare to who. 97. Obsession: God.music.close friends. 98. Looking forward to: everyday; when God brings me to a higher level. 99. Favorite weather: all. 100. Do you ever wish you were somebody else?: yes.God; the righteous one. she fluttered at 7:31 PM |
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in this race,
i have lots of things that i am still learning. deleted the previous entry because it just cause further misunderstandings. like what paLx experienced,i got slapped by the Holy Spirit.i got slapped by the things that i should not be doing.i am truly blessed to have the few people around me whom i can learn from; from their past experiences that they shared to me.they gave me the trust that i needed the most,hence,i can see the world clearer.evil is something that i see in myself too; i am carnal too. i realized alot of things that i need to learn and things that i am still learning.i learn how to heal myself when i am wounded.i am still learning how to view things like how the righteous one will view (: give me time to learn, because i do not want the covenant among us to be broken. she fluttered at 12:33 PM |
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| Saturday, February 21, 2004 |
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she was unsure
if what you said was true. hmms,quite refreshed now though i only sLept for like 4hrs? -sighs- anyway,i am in the school's computer lab.hahas.fel brought the chocolates that her god-mum brought back for her from canada! *yUmz* very nice!! wOoaHs~ anyway,i think that i will flung my "heat transfer" test! -sighs- heh hehx! the more i see clarence kwek,the more i feel that he looks like tBk! hahas~ and guess what? clarence nickx is hBk! -bwahahas- i am highly amused by it! after class having shepherding with debbie and having CG404 meeting at europe room after PM.tmr studying geo. together with kh! "i do not know if what you said was true.it peace my heart yet it makes me to doubt you more." she fluttered at 9:46 AM |
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"have i lose trust in you or is my discerning about you true?" she fluttered at 1:08 AM |
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it brought us all
back to where we first met. mans.i got the booklet for registration for 'N' level examination today! i discovered the paper of "bible knowledge" and i am quite curious about it.wells,'N' level will be a very soon thing for me.some papers' dates had been set. ms tan shared to us about derrick's purpose once again and this phrase came into my mind a dreamer's dream never dies.it was one of the sermon that pastor jeff preached last year.derrick is one friend whom i really respect and have impact my life a little.he is a man with a purpose in hand and he will work towards it.the day in class is pretty alright; the fact that me and audrey talked once again? at least i have not lose a friendship? (: had english common test after school and it was quite an okayy paper.however,many of us feel that the time was not sufficient for us to complete. after school went with hui,leng and angel to toa payoh to eat? actually the main thing was to collect hui's spectacles! ohhs~ and i reallyyy feel like making a pair of nodegrees spectacles! hahas.hmms,went long john to have eat and we sat there for like an hr?we chat alot on 4devotion; who will promote to sec5,how the class have improved and whatgirlsusuallydoeswhentheygetstogether! hahas.after that walked around and hui supposed to wait for her mum but later never.we sat for like 3hrs at the staircase at the station and we chat everything under the sun! it has been eons since we really talk for so long! always busy with tests and exams! shared alot too and we really talk quite alots of craps! hahas~ ^___~ but we did enjoy each others' presence.did some evaluation on ourselves and we talked about how we were last time,how we have come by and how we have grown.hahas! and i switched my shoes with angel! hahas. came home and talked to ron before bathing.hehes,at least i am not alone in a way or another.ohhs,and i came across a blog which i ponder over.celine was giving me those "hahaz" when i paste for her to see.hehs,i shall not care! need to return back to sch tmr for F&N and i have a class test to sit for,yet i have not even touch on it! -looks at time- 12.48am.forgoodnesssake! how can i complete? nothing can help but the grace of God (: alrights,gotto go and study! two down! xD she fluttered at 12:49 AM |
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| Thursday, February 19, 2004 |
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ripped this off someone else's blog! hahas.
If you.... ->were a fingernail polish color, which would it be?: ::red,white,black or pink! ->had to be a football or baseball for one day, which wud it be?: ::baseball. ->were stuck on a tropical island what 8 things would you take?: ::handphone,money,water,map,compass,siMpsOnx! (hahas!),clothes! (to bathe!!) and of course,GOD! (without Him i will die at a kuku place! hahas.) ->were a food which wud it be?: ::fish and chips, porridge. ->were a jolly rancher?: ::jelly? ->cud switch places with anyone: ::i am happy for what i am created in,just a little touch up on my figure and height & weight will do! -bwahahas- ->could star in any movie, which would it be?: :: none. ->When I say ____ what is the first thing on your mind?? :: blank. ->Nail: :: nails lorrs! ->Fluff: :: what's this? ->Base: ::bass guitar? ->Glue: :: glue larrs! ->Taco: ::hehs -_____-"" ->Orlando: ::hmms... ->gizzard: o.O! ->flipper: ::penguine!! xD ->Brazil: :: "brazil...lalalalala..." Random ->If you cud live anywhere, where wud it be?: ::paris! ohhsmans...! ->What goes in first... Chocolate or Milk?: ::chocolate? ->What would you change your name to if you could?: :: i won't change. ->What celebrity do you realllllly wanna meet?: :: is God counted as? many idolize Him right? ->Wintergreen or Spearment?: :: hehs. ->Would you eat pink snow?: :: unsure. ->Whats your favorite body part?: :: FLAT tummy! ->How many words do you think you say on an average day?: ::depends.if i am in my crappy mood,i think you will lose count,else,it is average or there is REALLY sth wrong with me.so better check out on me! ->Goofy or Pluto?: :: goofy! ->Aint ya glad this is over..i am..: :: -_____-""!! am feeling -_____-"" now! hahas.this quiz is so --;; anyway,off to sLeep now! tired! she fluttered at 10:41 PM |
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for sure,
this time's curiosity will not kill her. hahas.today is a kind of socialstudiesday?today marks the first paper of my common test! not bad.at least i prepared! well well,i feel that 4devotion have greatly improve; in terms of attitude towards exams - even common test! social studies was quite okayy though it did stunned us when we received the question paper! ahahas. this is the very first time that i feel the time given was not enough. hehes.guess i am improving! *wiNkz* -pats myself- jiayou! -bwahahas- today's training was cancelled because shen wants us to go home and study.hehes. so i had lunch cum dinner together with leng,hui,angel,peter and felix.felt so bad that i did not realized the presence of pearlyn in bus 13! ohhsmyy! sorrypearlyn! ohhsmans! how lame can peter be?he was at his lamest that he can be when we were eating! ahahas~ but i enjoy! after that walked a little while at J8 - the place i recently detest! --;; and i saw this really nice dress at P.O.A!! -ssccreamx- the price ain't so bad.but sad to say,i am just too short to wear it! -curls lip- but i saw another nice blouse! xD felix,too, says it is nice! ((: was browsing some blogs and came across one that leaves me to ponder a little while.however,it did not bother me that much.hahas.talked to celine and we had the same reaction! hahas! so funnyy~ but again,celine,if our friend were to choose that wayy,i really have no comments for it and it did not really bother me that much.i do not wish to discern about it anymore. ohhs wells,i felt so embarressed just now! i got this contact who shares the same name as ron - veronica.so she sms-ed me telling me that she changed her hp no. which i thought it was ron! --;; so you see,i feel so -_____-""! think i better get doing my hmws! but i am feeling so so tired! -curls lip- "can i sleep and drift off to my dreamland?" -bahhs- i am really unsure about how's the schedule like for tmr! ): one down! xD she fluttered at 9:04 PM |
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| Tuesday, February 17, 2004 |
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after striving hard for so long,
i see that you do not see any changes in me however, i will not give up. until the very day that you say "you have changed". she fluttered at 8:38 PM |
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she know she will be bless
she knows that well. xD is what is in my heart now.i am so happy now though in the morning i was freaking worrying! hehes.indeed God's peace and strength is within me; to overcome everything.and if i am hurt or whatever,He will comfort me and His shelter will be over me! got back my F&N test paper and teacher praised me for always handing up homework on time when others don't! hahas. salt and light! -chants on- stayed back for geo re-test which i actually do not have to sit for it at all! -bahhs- but its alright, because mr lau will take the higher score! actually i passed my class geo. test which was a miracle? first time in my upper sec life! hahas.however,i scored bette in re-test, 17! (x mummy brought me to see doctor about my backbone that is always giving me problems.the doctor pointed out that the way i carry my bag is WRONG.she wants me to carry it HIGH,not at the butt there! i went O_O! that is like,so toot! hahas. she prescribed medicine for me to eat when necessary.dad join us later on. ohh mans! i found the song that i want! ((: bytheway,i should not be online from now till 1march due to common test,it determines everything! hahas.so peeps,rush me off when you see me online! except for fridays! xD miss you peeps! she fluttered at 5:39 PM |
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close my eyes and feel your mind
time has passed I walk like a shadow never knew what I am going through you touch my hand and take my breath away whisper on the wind so softly let the bright stars fill our dreams with love reach for your hand and you show me the way tonight, I feel close to you you open my door and light the sky above when I need a friend, you are there right by my side I wish we could stay as one I wish we could stay forever as one all the tears that haunt my past you promised it'll be better tomorrow play that song you and I listened to and let it gently ease our pain tender rain drops from the blue sky flowers blooming, life is so divine like sunlight on a stream you show the world to me so much love in this beautiful world search for the brightest star in the sky you will find the meaning of love don't be afraid , just be yourself we need this love I've never knew she fluttered at 5:30 PM |
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| Monday, February 16, 2004 |
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in my weakness
i seek for Your presence; for it comforts me. when i fall You pick me up when i cry You dried my tears my knees were brought down to bow before You and acknowledge Your power within me for i know that You carry me in Your everlasting arms; never letting me go lead me O Lord, in Your righteousness. she fluttered at 11:01 PM |
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the days are drawing nearer.
she cries. she yells for help. prayer please. she fluttered at 10:36 PM |
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| Sunday, February 15, 2004 |
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she needs to believe
she needs to trust that by grace, she will be carried through. my energy had been totally used up.my eyes can hardly open; it is like the eyes of tin tin's,so small and restless.i can no longer ignite a smile on my face. by the grace of God, i know that i will be carried through. however i must still thank God. for lifting up the hurts and burdens that is within me that i may have His peace in me to live. i need to re-plan my study timetable because it will affects my result for common tets.this common test will prove alot of things! arghs. i will soon,collapse. she fluttered at 12:58 PM |
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| Saturday, February 14, 2004 |
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she have a wonderful valentine's
with the one she love. ahs~ valentine's day is a notajiayisday.hahas~ that is lame?anyway,i went to SWING!! yOohOos! -beams- i went to the only swing place i loved to be at! but then there were quite aLOTz of kids there -____-"" anyway,did a little write up about my life and i made a prayer.wells,what can i sayy? i just want to make it a memorable valentine's day! (: ohhs~! i swing! yeahx! *wiNkz* hehes.it has been such a long time since i last swing! the feeling is so so good.with the cold wind that surrounds my body. *faints* nice nice! alrights,i am kind of crazy about swings. hehes.they bring me back to those younger dayys and i always like to swing when i am sad,because the higher i swing, the happier i will be. back to today's service.this morning reached nexus at like 8.50am?lao da taught me aLOTz of thing today (: went for both 1st and 2nd service.gwen last min. told me that cynthia is coming.yeahx,she is more open now ^__^ hahas.stewpid paLx make me so guilty today! -stares at paLx- sayy what never go and help.paLx! that is whyy i bought that drink! hahas.ohhs~ i really love paLx manx~ each time i see her i will always laugh! hahas.and we fight on stage today. ehhs,18 and 16yrs old *hmms* lastly,God is gggreat.i shan't elaborate (: she fluttered at 11:34 PM |
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| Friday, February 13, 2004 |
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she enjoys learning;
to heal her wounds. my dayy was gggreat! yes,no? hahas.finally it was a tests-free day! -grins- so during math class i slept for like 3/4 of the lesson? hahas.very tired~ and the thing is,mrs goh did not ask anyone to wake me up at all! anyway,when i wake up,it was just to complete the assignment that she have given to us! ahahas~ today's assembly did not make me sLp! ahahs! anyway,after school met up ron at serangoon there and we went far east together.paLx meet us up later and we had a fun time talking,eating and walking around! *wiNkz*alrights,gotto go get some sLp cuz tmr is a long dayy for me! hehes. tmr is valentine's dayy~~ one year ago,haha! nvm,tmr i spend with someone else~ hoohoos xD she fluttered at 10:55 PM |
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when you cry,
i wipe the tears. when you fall, i lfit you up. when you are lost, i came to guide. when you are happy, i rejoice. when you stray, my heart bitters. so tell me, how can my life not have you? she fluttered at 6:24 AM |
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i will pray for you to be strong once again,
because you matters to me. had a 15mins talk with L2 just now.after hanging up the phone i spent for like 30mins typing an emaiLz? i pray that the emaiLz will make some sense and it will help.i seriously hope so (: *thanksgiving -blessing me with a pass for social studies! -to make me more sensitive to the holy spirit and growing myself stronger (: -God, for placing everything that You have showed me in the first place right into my front once again.You confirmed Your power in my life. like the clouds that does not leave the skies, i will be the friend that will not leave you. i will pray for you,each and everyday that you will be strong. because in my life, i discovered the power of praying and i do not want to lose you this friend, in my life. she fluttered at 1:40 AM |
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| Thursday, February 12, 2004 |
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i want to lift my eyes and see
the plans You have for me to share Your dreams for this reveal to me i want to know You more and more to be Your bright and shining star so that in my life i'll do what You will do take my hands and hold me near reveal to me Your plan i'll make it all become a part of me all i have belongs to You this hands i lift to You Lord, let Your Word watch over me show me Lord each and every day the best i can ever be for when i'm found in You that lay me at Your truth that's when my eyes they finally see she fluttered at 6:28 AM |
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| Wednesday, February 11, 2004 |
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in this battle she have been fighting,
she was greatly wounded by the one she loves; for the one she loves,hurts her the most her heart was broken which can never be mended again. she learns her lesson she will then leave this painful battle, not allowing the pain to cut through her anymore she will reminisce but she will not walk back she will allow the one above to heal her, unveiling her heart, her eyes. she fluttered at 6:50 PM |
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she was on the brink of breaking down
and let out the tears. the first half day of today was quite a disgusting one.not that anyone had vomit or what but the character that each showed in class disgust me aLOT.including me -sighs- nearly broke down in tears during chinese lesson because i cannot take it anymore.but i did not,i stayed strong.during recess stayed in class together with leng and hui. shared out how i feel from within and the burden was eased (: felt that my class is not what it used to be.yes,people DO change.they are easily swayed by the comments of others.math lesson was another disappointing lesson.mrs goh shed tears when she talked to us! -sighs- can u imagine that there were 9 zeros in our class? -shakes head- had lunch and ms tan sat with us.after awhile comes mrs goh! hahas.so leng,hui and me sat there for quite long and listen to the complains that mrs goh have to say to ms tan.-sighs- ms tan is under great stress.i do not know how to help,i only know that prayer helps.esp. when she asked the 3 of us to help her in keeping the class in orderly manner.how to? i have no idea at all.the only solution is to pray! yeahx! later going for dinner at crystal jade's la mian xiao long bao again! hehes. northpoint has one outlet! xD whyy? cuz today is my beloved mummy's birthday! -hugs- xDD *thanksgiving (: -passed my math test though i thought that i will confirm fail after i sat for the paper -sending me 2 nicey classmates; hui and leng.they never fail to brighten up my day whenever i am in school. -giving me the solution to my class. she fluttered at 5:01 PM |
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| Tuesday, February 10, 2004 |
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she craves and longs for
everything that she loves. xD + jumps ard! so happyyy!! my bills went down by $30 over! -beams- it should be around $47 like that! -bishes myself- for activating the stewpid MSN thingy! it cost me like $13?! awwws!! initially was quite afraid that my bill will go over 100bucks because i kept on using GPRS and sending MMS! hahas,but now,hOos~ it is the amount that i had set in the first place! thank God! (: had lunch with angel,leng,hui and reina at bishan.had duck rice~ wOo~ the rice is super nice! xD after that came home.super tired! argh~ thurs having 3 TESTS!! ohhs,had eng test today.it was quite okayy~ hehes.pray that i will pass! hahas. manx manx.i am still happy that my bills had cut down! *wiNkz* -bahhs- i wanna swinggg! she fluttered at 4:50 PM |
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i want to swing
i only want that swing that swings our happy days; it swings off the sadness and brings forth the happy moments will you sit together with me on the swing that we had once sat? she fluttered at 5:54 AM |
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| Sunday, February 08, 2004 |
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when she is alone,
she reminisce of everything. today's study was gggreat! though we did not revise on F&N but we studied for tmr's physics test! hohos.i was late for like 35mins? but guess what? kaihui is even worst! when i reached,i still have to wait for another 10mins before i can see her! -bahhs- had long john for my day's meal.hehs.then went down to e foodcourt to study.i must admit that it was rather a conducive place to study than airport.we did revision base on the 'N' level book and hoho~ i complete it! and i understand! hehes.really love kaihui~ she is a real gd friend who cheers up people's day! (: at least she always brightens up my dayy when i am with her.took bus 155 and passed a place which i used to always go.wanted to alight and play with the swing. but i did not.met mummy and daddy at northpoint and there were 2 hilarious scenes in the bus! hahas.alrights,i need to go sLeep already.another busy week coming up! ): she fluttered at 8:22 PM |
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| Saturday, February 07, 2004 |
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she wish to be no one's replica
just want to be herself. went nexus early to help out in sound and came to realize that STOMP do not really need so much of help from sound.hahas.nevertheless,i was there for a purpose.to snap some picx when they are having rehearsal.hence,i was late for seed.rushed down after that and left at 3pm? cuz i meet michelle 3.30pm at somerset.she is one bubbly and friendly girLx! thank God that veronica managed to make it for at least 30mins (: -thumbs up- to STOMP! reagan and team had worked very hard to produce this wonderful piece of music *salutes* xD after service met up with mummy to get my donation card and went back to nexus to return.helped out in moving back e stuff onto stage.hahas.there is one picx that i love! xDD it was so nice! shall go do something abt it.hehs.after service got the feel of asking people to carry me around; after bro and pearline carried me,i felt so wOo~ heez.met up with mummy again and bought her a jacket; as a birthday prezzie and we went starhub centre to have our dinner.it was, yuckks! -rolls eyes- got sudden change of emotion today.guess is because i dislike the comment of i look like anyone anymore.i dislike.i just want to be myself! she fluttered at 11:28 PM |
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| Friday, February 06, 2004 |
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it was a long time
since we chat under the sun. -bahhs- woke up to my horror that i did not wake up at 11pm to study for my bio test! ): so when i woke up,the first thing i did was to complete my bio mindmap! hahas. follow by a short read-up on today's test.reached sch early and studied a little tweeny bit! hahas.didn't have assembly today.so we meet up our consortium head at seminar room.before that there were rumours of the teachers gonna conduct spot-check.so obviously,many ran to hide their hps! the meeting was a boring one.guess that they did not want to release us early that's whyy ask us to attend e meeting! -_____-"" but one thing we all know now is that if we fail class test,we are suppose to copy the chapter! ): after school had lunch with kaihui, leng and angel! (: since sch start,we did not have e time to really sit down and talk.we had a nice nice talk (: after that went to take 8beam.manx.it was LONG queue! -_____-"" went home after that.ohhs,and i swopped my bag with kaihui! hees~ confirmation was -thumbs up- michelle and veronica is coming! prayerfully that adeline can turn up too! ^___^ phs! phs! phs! tmr is S-T-O-M-P!! *wiNkz* justonemoredayy! she fluttered at 8:42 PM |
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| Thursday, February 05, 2004 |
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mixed feeling
makes her unsure of herself. had my 2.4m run today and i passed it! didn't want to run in e first place but was motivated by the offer that mr ang had offered! hahas.so i ran and amazingly,i topped the girls in my class ^___^ hehs.after that had social studies test.manx.this was e first time i see mr lau so angry that he threw something to the back of the class notice board! ohh myy.i guess that sometimes my class just need to reflect the things we say and do! -sighs- after that had F&N test too.-bahhs- think i will not pass.i did not study the defination that came out for the test! -sigh-.during chinese lesson went to sit beside reina and i found out that i can study better when i am alone! i mean,that is for chinese only.hehs.and i found out that my chinese teacher is actually is a nice person! yes,she IS! ohhs manx~ sinhui is having fever now. -sigh- i guess i will be falling sick soon.never have proper rest since school start and my every week revolves the sameoldthing.had physics remedial after school follow by F&N.having headaches now~ tmr having bio test!! if fail have to copy the chapters.ahhs~ i need proper rest!! i am DEAD tired now. hehs.saw my fren's classmate today after sch at yck station.mentioning some people's name~ hahas. she fluttered at 6:33 PM |
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| Wednesday, February 04, 2004 |
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as the days goes by,
i pray that i will know myself better. xD back not long ago! *yuMz* e food at crystal jade was -thumbs up- it was so filling! hehs.thanks ron.a bowl of la mian can make my stomach bloat~ act. i don't really eat that much! *hmms* after that walked around for a little while.babygirLx was pretty good today, probably she wants to get sweets out from me! hahas.she is one clever girLx manx~ O_O!! taka's convention hall is having some sales for kappa,fila,arena,converse etc! so i bought a pair of men's berms? hehs.it was nice! but another was nicer but too bad,they do not have size 'M' anymore! ): today's math test was a discouraged one.act. i know how to do, but i guess after a short nap,i forgotten EVERYTHING! -sighs- i do not wish to fail it!! -bahhs- bUT, God blessed me with a pass for my chinese test which i thought that i will fail! ohhs,and my scanner is working! -grins- gonna take a nap now~ later waking up to bathe,call up my sec1 contacts + study for tmr's tests! she fluttered at 6:26 PM |
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| Tuesday, February 03, 2004 |
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seeing you all once again
was like the rainbow that brightens up my life. xD came home not long ao.was out with char,cel and sinhui! *wiNkz* had a wonderful time i must say,after a mth of not seeing each other! we were all so busy with our school work that i really appreciate the time that each of us had squeezed out today, to gather.hahas.it was so coincidence that out of 4,3 wore pink tops! hahas! went to take neos and then to KFC to have our dinner~ after that went popular to buy char's stationary and then went down to macs to study! hehs.our very first time of studying together? after we left pri. sch.sinhui left first but after that came back together with her mum! ohhs! her mum was so sweet! she came all the way down just to give us red packet! -grins- ohhs...sinhui! i am filled with excitement of going out during the march holidays,wearing the red dress that we both have! and celine! you dumbo!i love you to bittts! xD charrr! you are just too engrossed in reading e book! hahas! love you! xD awww~ i am tired! but i do not want to slp so early! -blehhs- i am contridicting myself! -____-"" anyway,i am looking forward to tmr! because i am going out with daddy,mummy and little babygirLx! hoos hoos! xD aHh~ i am also kind of looking forward to this sat's S-T-O-M-P! it will be a success right? *wiNkz* itwillbeoversoon. she fluttered at 11:28 PM |
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i do not wish for myself
to fall to the other side. school isn't that good for me today ): however God spoke to me a few things that i have to do and to be conscious of (: -nods- i will learn to do it well! received my 'N' level coursework today! my 'N' level starts NOW! thank God that i had cleared all my re-tests! xD (i think so.hehs) today's geo. test was hilarious! x) mr lau gave us re-test on the spot! hahas! anyway,social studies remedial was cancelled.-sighs- these coming mth i have lots of tests to study! ): there is no time for me to rest at all!! came home and found out that dad did not turn up for work,he was sick -sigh- i need to pray, pray and pray! i have a lists of things to pray for.later meeting char,sin and cel and we are gonna study! wOos! kind of excited for tmr! meeting my mummy up after school *wiNkz* wednesday(4,11,25 feb) :: math, physics(electrostatics),mother tongue and geo(common test) thursday(5,19,26 feb) :: social studies, F&N (pulses),social studies,math and F&N(common test) friday(6,20 feb) :: biology and english(common test) monday(9 feb,1 march) :: physics(magnetism), biology and physics(common test) -sighs- that's all.it is ENOUGH already *cries* she fluttered at 4:00 PM |
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| Monday, February 02, 2004 |
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i want to sit together with you by the bay
with the presence of the lovely rainbow once again. had cg404 meeting this morning.haven't been to RC for at least a month.after that went over to ron's hse for eng tuition together with puay.bro was there too.after lunch starts my tuition and had proper stuff today! (: after that laze around and decide to go off.bought a pair of slipper cuz the white one i have now is always making me fall.gotto read up my geo. notes for tmr's geo test! just bathed and feel quite refresh! hehes.oHhs~ i gotto cut down on my hp bills~ *tata* go complete my journal + study for geo.! *wiNkz* she fluttered at 7:16 PM |
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| Sunday, February 01, 2004 |
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her heart could not settle down
she could not feel peace at all. today had been a -breathe- quite okayy day for me.woke up and do some read up on some blogs.after which went out to deposit money and met kai hui up at paya labar to study.as usual,she was late for 18mins! -rolls eyes- we went to airport to study! -bahhs- thought it will be quiet.but it turns out to be rather noisy?perhaps the very last time i went it was around 5+pm that is whyy it was quieter. met mummy up at northpoint and after awhile comes daddy.went to look for mummy's prezzie and she still prefer a gold necklace.hahas. wOMAN ~o.O~ came home to lao yu shen.sis they all just went home. dinner not bad.but i guess that i will put on weight sOON -curls lips- hmms,somehow my heart is not at ease.i guess i'm worried for some stuffs. justtakecareyeahx? she fluttered at 9:22 PM |
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+jiayi |
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+ BBQ + careleaders + coreteam + courageous camp + dangers! + evax day + faith camp + family + kbox + match at sas + moments + neb + siMpsOnx + soccer cg + steamboat + teachers' day + 17-05-03 + 05-11-03 + 08-11-03 + 3devotion'03 |
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| each individual.` | |
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+ aaron + ah xiao + AJ2 + amelia + cheow hong + chen pei + cherie + chew yee + clarence + debbie + dehui + ding cheun + eelee + ethan + esther + evelyn + germs + gwen + huixin + ian + irene + jacob + jaime + janis + jason + jeremy + jessie + jian cong + jia shen + joanne + joel + junhuang + junxiong + kokok + lausanne + linda + lisin + meiyan + puay + qian jin + ray + rain + reagan + ron + ruichen + ruth + samantha + sean + sheralyn + shi hui + shila + shirley + sophia + wynnie + timothy + valneo + wendeline + xiuhui + yanyan + yihui 
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+ guitarjia + musicgirLx 2003 + july + august + september + october + november + december 2004 + january |
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i want to lift my eyes and see the plans You have for me to share Your dreams for this reveal to me i want to know You more and more to be Your bright and shining star so that in my life i'll do what You will do take my hands and hold me near reveal to me Your plan i'll make it all become a part of me all i have belongs to You this hands i lift to You Lord, let Your Word watch over me show me Lord each and every day the best i can ever be for when i'm found in You that lay me at Your truth that's when my eyes they finally see |
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