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Tuesday, September 30, 2003
i learnt sth today again.not to ask my fren out for study anymore.totally pissed off now.totally ruined my wonderful nitex to be able to study.

empty words again.


she fluttered at 6:11 PM
it was when we meet our difficult times where our decision really counts.

listening to God-shaped hole now.felt so nice...

i think my class really very lame.cuz yesterday audrey and hanis went to value shop and they bought 4 plastic color cups for each of us(marc,audrey,hanis and me).it was so so lame...then leng brought maggi mee to sch and we had it for our recess!! ahahas.anyway,going to take a nap nOw...

listening to:: God-shaped hole

she fluttered at 3:41 PM
Monday, September 29, 2003
i'm tired but my hair has yet to dry so i can't sLp yet...waiting for phone call but seems like...*hmms* hahas.i'll nv believe in myself of jogging 17rounds in one day.but i did it today.ahahas.wanted to jog straight after sch but it was raining cats and dogs so went to RC straight and did some revision on maths.after that ard 4+pm was rather tired so went to jog for 10rounds and went back for seed.had a great time worshipping God. words can never say how i feel.after that studied for awhile then send penguinnie off...went back RC,studied maths and went jogging with eeLee...hahas.we completed 7rounds!! -beams- then went off together with vOon.

hahas.i had a fun time repeating e french words that seafood taught me which really irritates her BIG time! ahahas...juz find e words nice and funny to play with -stick out tongue- anyway,i think my stewpid fren sLp already! -blehh-

countdown:: 4days
listening to:: hang on to You
she fluttered at 10:52 PM
Sunday, September 28, 2003
i love siMpsOnx family.

don't ask me why i say this.cuz i juz miss them so so much.every single one.
she fluttered at 11:21 PM
hahas.i felt so pri.6 now.my mum is watching huan zhu ge ge now.it was once a nice show that makes e siMpsOnx go crazy abt! hahas.can't believe how crazy we were that time...that we bought everything abt them! -muhahas- now listening to one of e albums i bought.hahas...so pri. 6 now.

babygirLx came over not long ago...shld be staying overnight today cuz my sister and bro in-law went genting to play! -sigh-
she fluttered at 11:03 PM
ripped it off i love xT's blog.
How often do we throw our temper at someone who was always there for us, who cares for us and really loves us with all his or her heart? And all we do is break their hearts?
_______

A man came home from work late, tired and irritated, to find his 5-year old son waiting for him at the door.

"Daddy, may I ask you a question?"

"Yeah sure, what is it?" replied the man.

"Daddy, how much do you make an hour?"

"That's none of your business. Why do you ask such a thing?" the man said angrily.

"I just want to know. Please tell me, how much do you make an hour? Pleaded the little boy.

"If you must know, I make $20 an hour."

"Oh," the little boy replied, with his head down.

Looking up, he said,

?°Daddy, may I please borrow $10?"

The father was furious, "If the only reason you asked that is so you can borrow some money to buy a silly toy or some other nonsense, then you march yourself straight to your room and go to bed. Think about why you are being so selfish. I work long hard hours everyday and don't have time for such this childish behavior."

The little boy quietly went to his room and shut the door.

The man sat down and started to get even angrier about the little boy's questions.

How dare he ask such questions only to get some money?

After about an hour or so, the man had calmed down, and started to think:

He may have been a little hard on his son.

Maybe there was something he really needed to buy with that $10 and he really didn't ask for money very often. The man went to the door of the little boy's room and opened the door.

"Are you asleep, son?" He asked.

"No daddy, I'm awake," replied the boy.

"I've been thinking, maybe I was too hard on you earlier," said the man.

"It s been a long day and I took out my aggravation on you. Here's the $10 you asked for."

The little boy sat straight up, smiling. "Oh, thank you daddy!" He yelled.

Then, reaching under his pillow he pulled out some crumpled up bills.

The man, seeing that the boy already had money, started to get angry again.

The little boy slowly counted out his money, and then looked up at his father.

"Why do you want more money if you already have some?" the father grumbled.

"Because I didn't have enough, but now I do," the little boy replied. "Daddy, I have $20 now. Can I buy an hour of your time? Please come home early tomorrow. I would like to have dinner with you."
_________

after reading this from ah xiao's blog,i learnt sth.not to lose him or her to my temper and regret it e next moment.cuz i realised that i always commit this silly and painful mistake.to really take time to find out why they do it
and treasure them =)

today is a tired yet fruitful day! hahas.went to help out for e water baptism thing.while waiting for ruth,sam and jenny,i went to look ard at e stalls and they sell e surf berms at a low rate!! hehez...so i'd told char to go before our camps.ahahas.after water baptism thing took bus 16 and sLept inside e bus...was really tired.walked ard centerpoint for abt 30mins before meeting paLx.had lunch with her.really enjoy being with her aLOT -grins- after that sent her to station and met char up and we went to heeren to buy stuffs. we was so lazy that we took bus to far east...we went to starbucks to study for 1hr 30mins like that...drank mocha + whipped cream!! *yums* it was nice!! ahahas. long time nv go starbucks already...still remembering that beginning of e yr i always go with my buddyz to study.i need ppl to study with me when exams come...so that i'll do well.ahahas. after that we went to walk around,searching for water bottles and i bought a pair of slippers!! it is nice but i dun think it'll last... hahas.we always get very serious when we're in e train...sharing our spiritual lifes... and i really enjoy e presence of aLL my siMpsOnx bUdDyz...so so wonderful...
she fluttered at 8:47 PM
Saturday, September 27, 2003
Exodus 15:11-13
Who among the gods is like You,
O Lord?
Who is like You -
majestic and holiness,
awesome in glory,
working wonders?
You stretched out Your right hand
and the earth swallowed them.
In Your unfailing love You will lead
the people You have redeemed.
In Your strength You will guide them
to Your holy dwelling.

she fluttered at 11:55 PM
heez...came back quite early today i think.cuz normally i'll reach home 11+pm or even past midnight on sat nitex.ahahas...

hmms,PM was great and hilarious with penguinnie! ahahas. *squeezes her nose* hahas.e song "victory chant" was cute!! hahas.after PM went to starhub to study.did study for abt 1hr.went to 7-11 to buy my apple juice and when i was on e way back to starhub,sth struck me.after i sat down to continue my work i received a phone call...to run errand.hahas...well well,i've sixth sense?anyway,went to PS after that phone call...then helped cel to buy her sweets also -muhahas- also learnt sth today while in PS.ahahas.came back and went nexus then saw ethan carrying out e electric guitar...heh.then on e way back to starhub saw ee voon so went to nexus again.ahahas...so there goes my time for studying.e dance was nice!! xD e machi didi.ahahas.

tmr gotto go down to joo chiat to help out e water baptism thing...gotto reach by 9.30am.then meeting e leaders 10.30am at east coast to find for place for water baptism...

You led me into Your presence,
where i'm so free in it.
felt so great O Lord,
this desire of sitting at Your feet to listen to You,
just make my heart smiles.
she fluttered at 10:44 PM
i swept down the sweats as i stroll down that long and dusty road.
the smell of the nature refreshes me of a new life.
as i stroll down,
many things came into my mind and reminds me of my happy times.
i smiled and continue walking,
because it won't be easy for me to give up anything that i'm doing now.
she fluttered at 8:24 AM
Friday, September 26, 2003
happy birthday yanyan!! xD

Song of Songs 1:6 Do not stare at me because i am dark,because i am darkened by the sun. My mother's sons were angry with me and made me take care of the vineyards;my own vineyward i have neglected.

this was e verse that daniel shared to us today during PM which reminded me once again that i shld focus my eyes on Jesus in e midst of my exams and every other things.PM was refreshing.it sure does.we had a long worship session and i really desire to worship Him more.juz more.daniel reminded us that we shldn't go to God when we've requests but becuz we wanna get closer to Him! -nods vigorously-

supposingly to meet eeLee for jogging after PM but suddenly celine wants me to help her in finding bks at library.so went with her.i did my 10 rounds today!! hahas.before PM i went jogging.did 6rounds,rested for 3 mins and ran another 2 rounds with my hp.so my last 4 rounds was together with cel.cuz i talked to her while running.hahas.then had dinner together. well well,i thought that i would be e lastest,but know what? she is LATER than me! she really beats me to every beat in tearms of lateness! ahahas.i wetn O_O when she told me that she juz left home...*faints* so my poor fren altogether waited for abt 35mins? ahahas.i was late for 20mins.

after dinner we went to library@orchard and search for e bk that she wants.well, i think this is e bk that she's finding.but know what? she FORGOT to bring home! -blehh- so it is at my hse now...hahas.hmms,tmr having shepherding at 9.45am! then meeting paLx to have breakfast at 11am! ahahas.after PM gonna study!! -grins- love studying now.pray that this spirit will always be with me =)

*yanyan
ttttthanks for e times when i'm down u were here to encourage me and show yr love and care.really felt loved and care! =) and for those times when we went home together,all e lameness we had...xD and of cuz...all e camp photos that we took! -grins- -hugs-
she fluttered at 11:57 PM
Thursday, September 25, 2003
happy birthday pearlyn!! xD

we did an operation on a frog today.and i muz say i can now experience e pains that God went through for ALL of us; sinners.before He die,He went through beatings all that.then He was nailed to e Cross.well,it was really painful... ahh God...what have i done to deserve all this that You'd done? *back to e top* then we learnt abt e diff. parts of e frog and i saw how e frog really struggled. -sigh- it was really painful. eng lesson was fun though.i sLept when i'd finished my hmw and ms tan wrote 3 instructions of e whiteboard:
1)quietly, all those awake,leave ur seats and go out of e classroom
2)One by One, leave ur seats. Audrey, don't laugh!
3)so that we can see how soundly everyone is.
goodness...this is so lame!! hahas.and ms tan shouted right into vanda's ear! ahahas...poor vanda.ms tan also discovered audrey's nose-piercing...hahas.she spent abt 30mins to remove that thing... -blehh- and she grabbed my hand so that if she were to feel pain,she'll pinch me! argh.hahas.

met up with ee voon at e shelter there and we went to RC together.hahas. then on e bus we was doing our usual crappings.well well,cg started 1hr later.but we had a quick one.left RC with ah xiao.but ee voon,rain,nemo and huishi caught up with us! indeed, we had a FUN time talking in our own language! ahahas...but then,i didn't do any jogging today...so i'm GOING to do jogging with eeLee tmr! -looks at eeLee- hahas...

*celine
thanks for e crazy sms u'd sent yesterday.it does make me laugh when i received e later-ons.thanks.at least,i know that u're always here with me besides God =) -hugs-
she fluttered at 7:53 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2003
rushing leaves; like my brain
fallen leaves; like my heart

how can i stop the leaves from rushing?
how can i stop the fallen leaves from falling?

as the moon and the stars shines at its place,
i allow myself to be drift into a world full of dreams,
where moments were being reminisce once again.

in the middle,
out of a sudden i sat up for a moment,
a moment which could lead me to weary eyes.

the distress of my inner have pushed me to the


corner


she fluttered at 9:38 PM
happy birthday audrey!! xD

ripped this off yan's blog.
"Good pals are hard to find nowadays." Never break up a friendship especially if they are friends worth keeping.
i think this is true and it reminded me again not to break up a friendship when they're someone who is worth keeping.

went jogging juz now at yishun stadium.endured a 7rounds jog in 20mins...well,i'm supposed to jog for 30mins.hahas.hope that tmr eeLee and rain can go jog with me after cg! xD reached home and start reading blogs all that...was thinking deep when reading one of e blogs.bathe and started on my homeworks till now...-grins- i've finally finished e entire coursework! -beams- act. F&N is really fun =) hahas.really,no kid.but i've no idea why i sounded so -blehh- when i was talking to pearlyn abt F&N! -grr-

juz now in e bus on e way home from stadium, saw yuan ping with her friend.she saw me and stared at me before waving to me! hahas.sure it did bring me back memories when i was in pri. sch with her that once, we were quite close. then it reminds me of mr alphonsus!! he is a great great teacher! he was my athletic teacher and was once the form teacher of me and char when we were in pri. 3.it was a fun and corny yr! =) think i might drag shi hui back to see him at e end of e yr...hahas.i really miss him aLOT.was on bus 806 when i saw wei long.but he didn't see me.ahahas. -looks at my bed- ah hei is so cute!! she curls herself and sLp on my bed!! heez... though she might always be e one picking a fight with ah bai, she is still a cute cat afterall. she does have her lonely times too.like now,when ah bai had left hse this morning! ahahas.
she fluttered at 3:46 PM
Tuesday, September 23, 2003
90% done with my F&N coursework! heez...tmr is a day for me study.so happy.think i muz have gone haywire abt studying...nvm. *ywans* quite tired now...but will spend QT first before sLeeping...argh.am getting fat i think...nono...muz go jogging tmr! -muhahas- realised that i hadn't been chatting on icq for quite a few days.as in really those crappy chats...-blehh- bored yet need to mug myself to study!

hmms...i'm really thankful and felt blessed for ppl who always pick me up when i'm down or at e brink of giving up.they juz come by and pick me up, lifting my faith up again,making me feel care, feel loved.this kind of feeling is juz so wonderfuL =) and it is always the One Up there who send all these ppl to me -smiLes-

catch this!

*tmr's plan
-jogging after sch
-take a nap
-study
-practise praise song.
-spend QT.
she fluttered at 11:11 PM
the light fought so hard for itself to be broken out of darkness,
to be seen by many.
yet, there's this uncertainty in each that have yet to see the light.

there's is calling, this desire of seeing the light clearer,
where everything will be as crystal clear.

this feeling from within,
has forced every bit to come out in a form of entertain;
so as to keep herself

strong.


she fluttered at 8:16 PM
training cancelled at e eleventh hr.but anyway,i dun think i'll attend also cuz i was feeling rather feverish in class after maths lesson.had a fun time in eng lesson though and praise God!! i've found my beloved maths textbook!! heez...i drew some words on it which makes me LLoovvEE e bk so much!! -looks at paLx- -muhahas- hmms,had my 5 periods of F&N in comp. lab and chatted with yanyan!! heez...gotto study real hard and i'm seriously looking forward to the days after exams!! esp. when yanyan return back to singapore! hahas.well well,she is now on my icq. hahas.but she's in malaysia!! -blehh- blogspot have some prob. now that i can't see my own blog! *sulks* i think my sch very fake-y...cuz tmr e "acting minister" is coming to visit my sch and my sch, act. put up lots of painting... what's this...and wants us to decorate our classrooms nicely to impress him. wants us to be obedient tmr...juz for tmr -blehh- so fake! countdown to final yr exams - 9days!! argh...study study study...

listening to:: stronger than
she fluttered at 4:41 PM
Monday, September 22, 2003
minutes and seconds are ticking away,
leaving the past behind where it was created.

people are moving from place to place,
changing its color faster than ever.

nothing remains the same
for,
everyone is searching for its own place.


a place just for herself.
she fluttered at 11:24 PM


it's a different you
it's a different me
it's the mask we wear hey cant you see
don't you run away from reality
cause the truth is there
the truth will set you free


-sigh- am so sad that my maths textbook is lost.what does that teach me?not to lend others my textbook?had done all my notes and it was inside.i juz have to rely on God to help me to get it back.mrs goh had taught so much of e maths that i can't catch up.2 days is really a difference in maths.exams is coming up real soon that all i could think in my mind is to study,study and study.i may look relax and still joke ard,but it doesn't make me less stress abt e upcoming of e exams.

went swimming after sch.after which,met up with paLx to study.went KFC. as usual,talk,eat then study.saw nemo at KFC at 5+pm.after that it was too cold for us to stay that we decided to move out of e place.was haunting for places to study but to no avail.so we all decided to head home.was kind of feeling feverish when i was in e bus.

listening to:: my immortal

everything may seem perfectly okay,
every speech,every movement.
however,
there's this part of me which i'm weak in,
that no one sees it.
'cause deep inside me,
i knew that,


i'm not strong.


she fluttered at 7:57 PM
ripped it off jx's blog.

Love at First Sight - Wislawa Szymborska
Both are convinced
that a sudden surge of emotion bound them together.
Beautiful is such a certainty,
but uncertainty is more beautiful.

Because they didn't know each other earlier,
they suppose that
nothing was happening between them.
What of the streets, stairways and corridors
where they could have passed each other long ago?

I'd like to ask them
whether they remember - perhaps in a revolving door
ever being face to face?
an "excuse me" in a crowd
or a voice "wrong number" in the receiver.
But I know their answer:
no, they don't remember.

They'd be greatly astonished
to learn that for a long time
chance had been playing with them.

Not yet wholly ready
to transform into fate for them
it approached them, then backed off,
stood in their way
and, suppressing a giggle,
jumped to the side.

There were signs, signals:
but what of it if they were illegible.
Perhaps three years ago,
or last Tuesday
did a certain leaflet fly
from shoulder to shoulder?
There was something lost and picked up.
Who knows but what it was a ball
in the bushes of childhood.

There were doorknobs and bells
on which earlier
touch piled on touch.
Bags beside each other in the luggage room.
Perhaps they had the same dream on a certain night,
suddenly erased after waking.

Every beginning
is but a continuation,
and the book of events
is never more than half open.
she fluttered at 7:47 PM
Sunday, September 21, 2003
there's a different side in everyone's life.
even the extroverts will have their quiet moments,
a moment where they feel lonely; alone.

she is not always happy though she may be smiling.
'cause deep in her,
there is something that no one will ever know.
she fluttered at 7:18 PM
I'm reaching for the prize
I'm giving everything
I give my life for this
It's what I live for

Nothing will keep me from
All that You have for me
You hold my head up high
I live for You

Greater is He that's living in me
Than he that is in the world

Faith I can move the mountain
I can do all things through Christ
Faith standing and believing
I can do all things through Christ
Who strengthens me


this song is a killer song to me...hahas.yesterday sang it during service...each guitarist played their own solo part which i think it is really nice =) bass is nice afterall.but nvm,my passion is still in learning electric guitar.ahahas...

juz returned from jogging! hahas...shall ask eeLee out to jog tmr after seed!! -muhahas- hmms,later going to study with cel...hahas.i still can sLp for 1hr 30mins before meeting her...hahas...

listening:: faith
she fluttered at 11:26 AM
1 corinthians 4:4-5my conscience is clear,but that does not make me innocent.it is the Lord who judges me.therefore judge nothing before the appointed time,wait till the Lord comes.He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness and will expose the motives of men's hearts.at that time each will receive his praise from God.

was reading 1 corinthians 4 and this 2 verses reminded me that it is e Lord Almighty who judge,not man.so i don't have to worry abt how man looks at me.somehow,i juz left e bible open on my desk and went to sLp...i think i shld juz leave my bible on my desk.hahas...cuz it does help me in some ways =)

well well,woke up at 9am...switched on my comp. and start listening to "hang on to You"...-ssccreamx- it was so nice!! i've found e chords for this song...so i shall try playing it well...hahas.my next challenge is to play e electric guitar part...heez... -blehh- i forgotten how to read guitar tabs already...-sigh- have to ask paLx again.i'm get lazier...cuz i nv jog.hahas...i shall go later!! xD 2.57mins is where e electric guitar starts!! ahh...nice nice...=)

hmms...today is my study day...no one study with me...so i shall try studying by myself at home...-smiLes-
she fluttered at 9:54 AM
then,i know that there are actually people who cares.
she fluttered at 12:56 AM
had a nice nice day...=) had breakfast with paLx. ahahas...i'm late for e 2nd time?heez...let her hear e recording of my "God of Wonder" that electric guitar part which i played on my acoustic guitar...and she said it was a distorted one...ahahas.i agreed.but nvm,always seek for improvement...shared some stuff during our breakfast...hahas.really glad that God had put her in my life.to guide me,to be with me. after that went to nexus, supposingly to find debbie but she wasn't there yet. so we sat down and see e rehearsal.after awhile, went to macs again to help shuzhen,penguinnie and eeLee. came back that time ingured myself. so i was enduring e pain throughout PM...but nvm larr.heez... during WFL, had test and i think that i've flung it...didn't study... was feeling sLeepy too cuz i ate medicine...hahas. praise God that during praise i was able to jump and hop ard! hahas...it is really amazed at times when yr wound is so so painful yet when u make a prayer,it heals everything. e multi-media was really touching, though i watched it quite a few times...always hang on to e Cross.hang on to Jesus,always. man fails,but God don't. am so amazed at His love to me,His grace and His every movement and plans He had for me...am juz so grateful.

after service rushed off to meet rei and maddy.went to clarke quay to celebrate maddy's birthday...hahas.we had a great time manx! went with aunty esther,uncle johnson,jonathan,joshua,char,rei and of cuz,maddy. hahas.ate loads of stuff and after that we went toilet, which was when aunty esther start to spill water on maddy when she was in e toilet...hahas...fun fun =) then we all went play pool together...heez... know how to play a little bit already...muz practise! hahas...yes,after exam,we're gonna hit pool tables often! -muhahas- hmms,1 more activity to add on to e program for holidays!

heez...camp is coming!! it is on 11th-14th dec at winsfield...nice nice =) our 3rd chalet like that...hahas.so char and me shall plan out on which date to book chalet...hahas.

heez...e song presentation was really nice...ahh!! electric guitar!! my lover!! -blehh- so nice...electric guitar -chants on- killer to me...hang on to You...

20-09-03 happy birthday to shifu and joseph.
*shifu
thanks for all e advices u'd given me.appreciate it...and thanks for imparting yr skills to me...=)

happy birthday to evelyn and jerel.
*evelyn
thought dun really know u,but then i've seen e way u work things...u work it with all yr heart and always wanting to do e best! =)
she fluttered at 12:34 AM
Saturday, September 20, 2003
-beams beams- i'm juz so so happy that i can figure out e part that electric guitar played in "God of Wonder"... heez...but have to practise more cuz still will have some finger errors...-muhahas- going to jog soon...meeting paLx 10.45am at somerset to have breakfast together...hahas.she's craving for macdonald... cuz got cuppons...ahahas.debbie is singing today...hmms,shall go find her after breakfast! ahahs.hmms...thinking of what to wear later...-blehh- this happens when i've only 1 pant that i like.shall go buy more...ahahs. -counts fingers- 14daysMORE to final yr exams!! -ssccreamx- next week shall start studying already...it is so so fast...

lincoln brewster is a killer to me.
hahas.


she fluttered at 8:51 AM
Friday, September 19, 2003
finally...i bought e nike thing that i wanted so much...-grins- it was quite reasonable after a 30% discount. hahas.its worth it. -looks at paLx- heez... then char bought a pure milk t-shirt which i think it really look nice...shall go back nx week cuz e person says they're having new stock next week.hahas...i'm in my "shopping mood"...goodness.i shld be in my stress + studies mood.but guess is becuz i'm sick so i kind of relax myself...and we took a neo card together.heez... nice nice =) long time nv take with her already *wiNkz* -blehh- my stomach is a little pain now...maybe it is time to take medicine...-blehh- e medicine abit sour...nvm.

was at far east bk when i was looking outside...then was my heart stop beating for awhile...

luckily,it wasn't what i'd thought...


she fluttered at 11:24 PM
*ripped it off chia's blog.
4 Things

Name 4 things you have done today:
- brush teeth
- ate my breakfast
- read blogs
- visited toilet

Name 4 things you are thinking about right now:
- my siMpsOnx
- go queensway
- paLx
- studies!!

Name 4 scents you love:
- rose powder (cel gave it to me.)
- e 3 scented candles (my fren gave it to me.)
- baby powder
- nature?

Name 4 things you'd never wear:
- mini skirt
- boots
- tattoos
- very high heels

Name the last 4 things you have bought:
- t-shirts
- food
- fruits
- facial foam

Name 4 things drinks you regularly drink:
- fruit juice!! (apple)
- ice plain water
- saliva? (hahas)
- ice horlicks

Name 4 bands/groups most people don't know you like:
- hillsong
- blink 182?
- United Live
- westlife? (quite okay)

Name 4 bad habits you have:
- procrastination
- play play play (which leads to "dun wish to do things")
- emotion
- rudeness

Name 4 things you wish you had:
- nokia 7250i hp!!
- new set of computer (though this is only 1yr 4mths old)
- digital camera
- electric guitar + amplifier!! -beams-

Name 4 people who know you best:
- God
- mummy
- celine
- charlene

6 things

Six things I'm good at:
- talking back
- listening
- play
- guitar?
- sports
- looking back

Six things I'm lucky to have:
- God
- my beloved family
- siMpsOnx family
- paLx
- electronic stuffs
- able to study

Six good things about myself:
- loving?
- caring?
- listening?
- have faith
- easy going
- able to lead

Six people who love me:
- God (unfailing love)
- my family
- siMpsOnx family
- some people in my life
- myself!! (hahas)
- future husband!! (else, how to marry him?! -muhahas-

Six people who I love:
- God
- my family
- siMpsOnx family
- sHeeP
- some people in my life
- my future husband!! -muhahas-

Six things I could do if I really wanted to:
- more time with God
- more time with my family
- more time with siMpsOnx
- more time to play guitar
- turn e time back and study hard!!
- enjoy

This survey was taken at powersugoi.net!

Soft Hearted
If your two hands are free, you will always volunteer them to help out. You take a compassionate initiative, but possess the respect to hang back until given the go-ahead to get involved. How Caring Are You?



never attend sch...now still having headaches *frowns* yesterday sLept at 9.10pm but somehow at 12.20am was woken up by paLx sms-es though it was in silent mode...hmms.then sms her for awhile then i went back to sLp...sms-ed char and my fren but guessed that they'd all gone to bed...hahas. who wouldn't in bed in that hr?! sLept till this morning then decided not to attend sch...sms-ed hanis...hmms...after reading some sms-es,i felt a burden. dunno how i'm feeling also...but...(and it goes on...)

headaches kept on coming...-blehh- hate this kind of feeling.oohs,gotto reply paLx emaiLz...

*my fren
keep yrself out of stress...=) plan yr time well and sLp well...hahas.
she fluttered at 8:58 AM
Thursday, September 18, 2003
monopoly
Your Monolopy! Your complicated but heaps of fun.
It may seem like you have been around for ever
but you never seem to get boring.


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*ywans* i'm still tired...though i didn't attend sch and sLept more than anyone...i still wanna say that i'm TIRED!! argh...juz now went to meet audrey at yishun macs to take hanis's bio + phy notebooks...then went to meet my fren to change thing...on e way home my cg-mates called and asked if i'm okay...heez...nice of them =)

well well...i should say that my day is not bad afterall... able to spend time with my mummy and to rest too (^^) gonna copy notes and study for awhile before re-charging myself for tmr which is a long day...

she fluttered at 7:13 PM
=) each time i'd finished spending time with my mummy,i felt so great (^^) didn't attend sch today...so i sLept till 8.30am like that.at ard 6+am i woke up and release myself...-muhahas- and guess what?ah hei realised that no one wake up then she kept on knocking on my door...(she scratch) i was kinda amused cuz she is a living alarm clock for e whole family! she knows what time we wake up and if we don't,she'll scratch e doors! clever right? juz like e owner...-muhahas- woke up and had breakfast with daddy and mummy.after which,went to market with mummy.my eyes was a little red which i don't even know why.had quite a fun time at market. didn't want to go initially,but e motivation somehow pushed me - to spend more time with her. argh...and e market was in e midst of renovation!! which makes my belove spiky slippers dirty!! -blehh- but i've rinsed it with clear waters. so tata! it shld be clean then.heez...mum really dotes on me aLOTs. whatever i want to eat or drink,she'll buy...hmms...and i bought 2 packets of fruit juice and my fav. brand of instant noodles.heez...she bought for me my fav. vegetables too =) gonna have a sumptous meal today i guess.trust me,her cooking is -thumbs up!- cel can testify! hahas. gonna study today...later evening going to take things from my frens...then copy e notes that i'd missed out on this 2 days. returning back to sch tmr...(^^) "dilligent dilligent" -chants on-

!@#$ -blehh- my skin is peeling...in e most disgusted way.and cel used snake to compare with us. -bish her!- i'm terrified and i dislike SNAKES!!

hahas...yesterday min hui sms-ed me asked if i'm going to ice-skating next sunday...hmms,i told him i shld be going...but he said he not sure.hahas.what a corny answer to get...cuz he always love to play(general)...but if e outing is postpone to 5th oct,then i won't be going...cuz i'll be in e midst of my exams! hahas.
she fluttered at 11:00 AM
Wednesday, September 17, 2003
specially for charlene.

char.i'm so so glad that we'd moved on from how evil we were last time when we was in pri. sch.that u'd allowed God to mould yr life so much so much and even brought me to know Him.i'm really grateful to u who had introduced such a wonderful Person in my life.i'm also thank you for all these while,that u're always here for me in my UPs and DOWNs.u always make yrself available for me even when u were in e midst of doing yr assignments... listening to my problems and helping me to solve by and through God's eyes.in all,i juz wanna say that i really thank you for e conversation that we had juz now.u really took time out and listen,to help me solve. above all,just wanna give u a real tight -hug- and to say i love you. thanks for everything.
she fluttered at 10:14 PM
was at home since 11.30am...had diarrhoea and vomited in sch -blehh- dun like e pain that was in me...but thankGod that now it is better...came home and rested from 11.45am to 1.30pm like that...it was raining heavily then and thank God that i was at home else i think i'll be even more sick cuz will be caught in e rain... talked to paLx for 3hrs 5mins 5secs!! hahas.we broke e record! ahahas... hmms,not attending sch tmr cuz wanna rest more and e doctor gave me a 2 days MC. -sigh- so i shall do some studying while i'm resting at home...heez...exams coming soon... wOo.wOo.wOo... and i'm looking real forward to e holidays...cuz can spend time with siMpsOnx they all...and also might be working for my cousin at hp shop...hahas.hmms...i'm thinking real hard on what model of hp to change too...hahas...

listening to:: stan
she fluttered at 7:18 PM
it all comes out of her feelings which she couldn't control
or even try to.
she allows everything to move pass her so fast
which leaves herself to walk at her own pace.
she couldn't tell the inner thinking of herself to anyone
'cause everyone was so busy.
but one thing that she yearns for more was

her love towards God.


she fluttered at 12:03 PM
Tuesday, September 16, 2003
(^^) sth to be happy and rejoice over is that my mummy and me are okay =) was pretty sad at how she react towards me yesterday morning but when she returned home yesterday i apologise and we were gd again.hmms,but she did questioned me on some stuffs.hahas.

had my F&N practical exam today...not bad.hahas.hanis said that my fried nice is nice!! xD hopefully by God's grace i'll do well (^^) and i'm really proud of my fried rice xD hahas.it really does taste nice *yums* during recess we were practically eating and eating...sampling e food of each others'.wells,i shld say that pearlyn's speghetti is really nice,e cheese.had training and we did e 66 laps running.quite okay...maybe i shld juz practise more.to train up my stamina.hmms,mr sim said that in order to slim down,1 week jog for 4km/30mins...shall do that...hahas.

hmms...eng paper is starting on 3rd oct,follow by other papers.so i'm left with just 17days to study!! hmms,juz have to be more attentive in class and spend my time wisely so that i can REALLY do well in my final yr exams.

O_O my skin is PEELING...hahas.and it looks a bit not nice...-blehh- okay,time to study!
she fluttered at 8:59 PM
Monday, September 15, 2003
compelled to wake
because there's this wanting to see you.
hidden the inner self
because the desire within wants to spend more time with you.
bare the feelings
because totally

heart broken.`


she fluttered at 6:37 AM
happy birthday paLx -hugs-

9more mins and her birthday is over.well well...hope that she'd really enjoyed her day =)

My inner child is ten years old today

My inner child is ten years old!


The adult world is pretty irrelevant to me. Whether
I'm off on my bicycle (or pony) exploring, lost
in a good book, or giggling with my best
friend, I live in a world apart, one full of
adventure and wonder and other stuff adults
don't understand.


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had been quite studios today.woke up and went for a jog,came back wake celine up and went off together.met up with char at causway point,walked ard,had lunch and head off to her hse to study.both of us was thinking and talking abt sin hui!! hahas.and we really miss you much!! managed to settle down by 2.40pm and started revising my work.hmms,was rather sLeepy when i first touch on maths,however a prayer does work! -smiLes- cel join us at 2.50pm like that...stayed for 1hr and went off.after she went off my concentration was stronger...hahas.then used e net for awhile and begin to sLack ard...hmms.was lying on her bed talking to her and indeed had a nice nice talk =) went off at 6.30pm...supposingly to meet my fren 7.15pm to continue studying...but somehow my fren was late for 55mins!! -blehh- 2nd longest person i've ever waited.ohh wells,my expression wasn't that gd though.had a gd time studying at macs (^^) really.gave my full concentration and managed to finish studying maths!! -grins- left ard 9.30pm and headed home...

hmms...but i really enjoyed today though it was studying! and i've ONE thing to say. and that is "i'm experiencing the stress".it has COME.finally...

*to mummy
i'm sorry...truly sorry -hugs-

there are so much so much to say from within
each time, there is this different feeling,
and when it wants to say,
the courage somehow disappear.

she fluttered at 12:09 AM

Sunday, September 14, 2003
You make me fall in deep love with You once
and i know that i can't get myself out of this.
You were the one who was always here with me
through thick and thin,i could only see You
i love You and i'm bounded by Your love
because whenever i go astray from You,
You never fail to stop and walk back to my side,
hold my hand gently and guide me back.
each time as i was about to fall off from You,
You ran and gently embraced me back in the arms of Yours.
how could i ever be able to stop myself from loving You when

You're the only One who love me like how love should be?


she fluttered at 9:37 AM
reached home not long ago.hahas.now 1.57am!! -muhahas- sitting beside me is dearie celine.hahas...she taking her own sweet time looking at all my hp casing...

had a quite fun day today! had breakfast with paLx.then went WFL.taught by daniel...so corny.after WFL we went starhub and had a bite then i went ard centerpoint with paLx to shop shop.met linda at somerset station and went to nexus together.sermon was -thumbs up!- hmms...and i kind of like e style that jacob played e drum.hahas.after service celebrated paLx birthday.was indeed a fun one...i was e one chairing cuz debbie no voice... hmms.hahas.then they rushed off for CLm...then i sort out e stats already went home with nemo...was at yishun then my fren no key home so went to accompany my fren...saw this little girl playing candles all that.it was so so nice...but dunno why i nv involve myself in playing...-sigh- it might be e last time i play e candles with my fren? ahh. hmms...had quite a nice time talking though...then i missed my bus so i've to wait for another 15mins...then met up with celine at amk...thankGod that we didn't miss e last bus...=)

*paLx
really thank you for e times that u've been with me through my UPs and DOWNs.u nv fail to pick me up and draw me back to God and u nv fail to lend me yr most precious listening ears when i needed it e most...you're someone that really decides and seeks after God.you're someone who also go all the way for Him and for yr ppl =) really thankGod for placing u in my life...u inspired me big time with e passion u have towards God and guitar!! -smiLes- you know me inside out and i believe there are just so so much for me to say out...-sweet smile- u know what it means.believe that when u go over,u'll grow even more and desire even more.that you'll serve with great passion by using yr talents given by God. -hugs- hope it says everything.
she fluttered at 2:18 AM
Friday, September 12, 2003
how long more Lord?
she fluttered at 1:36 PM
Whenever I'm weary
From the battles that rage in my head
You make sense of madness
When my sanity hangs by a thread
I lose my way but still you seem to understand
Now and forever I will be your man

Sometimes I just hold you
Too caught up in me to see
I'm holding a fortune
That heaven has given to me
I'll try to show you each and every way I can
Now and forever I will be your man

Now I can rest my worries and always be sure
That I won't be alone anymore
And if only i'd known you were there all the time
All this time

Until the day the ocean doesn't touch the sand
Now and forever I will be your man

Now and forever I will be your man


simple words yet contain so much inside.
the complex of the inner doesn't seem to say out.
yet you're able to see the bottom of my heart.

infront of you my feelings are bare
'cause it didn't allow itself to hide anything.
through my eyes you see through
everything.
she fluttered at 9:49 AM

ripped it off timothy's blog.
We can live a few days without food, we can survive a shorter time wihout water. But we cannot live a single moment without hope.

-grins- yesterday was indeed a enjoyable day -smiLes- woke up at 7am when i heard e alarm for waking celine up went ringing...and guess what?she WOKE up by herself!! breakthrough!! hahas.but my tone was totally dead when i called her.before leaving e hse min hui called and asked if we want to meet then go to station together...hmms.was so hype UP abt going to sentosa. its been a long time since i last visit.met up with e rest at station and we set off together.heez...it only takes 1hr from yishun to harbourfront.that's pretty fast.jon was all e way pushing us to walk faster so that he could have his breakfast.in e end cel and me queued up for so long for 2 plates of carrot cake and make e guys wait for us. hahas.was struggling whether to take cable car or bus in to sentosa...so in e end is bus.went to palauwan beach and we found a real gd spot to place our stuffs and start off with playing volleyball!! hahas -grins- we had a nice time though it wasn't a smooth game.later on met some youth-adults between e range of 22-28?they were playing volleyball and they shared with us e court.so 1 came over and asked if we were interested to form our team and play with them.lester and i was nodding all e way.hahas.so got to know some of them.vanessa was e one that approached us.and guess what? they're teachers! hahas.vanessa teach at outram institute while matt and some of e rest are still in NTU.we shared our tables with them and they allowed us to put our ice-cubes in e ice box.we had a fun time playing volleyball. hahas.then we went to dip in e water. pushed cel down to e water.got pushed as well.in e afternoon there was this bunch of cedar girls who came to use our court and lester went to ask if we can play together...hmms. felt kind of weird playing with them but playing with them can somehow last e game cuz they're sch players.hahas. hmms...yes,we did swim in that salty water and we got on to this yellow-round board and this black-squared board...fun fun =) it was a little drizzling in e afternoon. but thankGod who answered char and mine's prayer to calm e weather and to make our day nice again =) mad joined us in e afternoon.saw nemo at sentosa!! hahas.

-sigh- cel!! we should have buy e skirt when u told me!! argh.now we've to wait until e next time...if there is any.i believe that skirt is nice...cuz cel said that it was a beach skirt.argh...and it cost only 10bucks!! -blehh- wanted to buy when we went to bathe but e shop was closed!! -sigh- wanted to visit another shop when we come out from our shower but then...haiis.it was also CLOSED when we came out...-sigh- so we took a monorail ride to musical fountain and heez...it was so so nice!! hahas.e animation,e colors...etc.after that we struggled our way out and after a 20mins searching for e bus and ways to cable car station we finally found bus-stop!! hahas.but know what? i saw SNAKE!! -shivers- i DISLIKE and FEAR of snakes!! -blehh- but anyway,i was so (^^) when i was in e cable car!! -grins- it was so so nice!! e scenery...but there's this point that i'm afraid...cuz i've a little fear of height. but somehow cel calmed me by holding my hand tight.alighted at somerset and saw zou kiu and jason... hmms.always see zou kiu one. after that we went to orchard and sit down and had ice-cream!! *yums* and we stopped at swenson there to buy e ice-cream when cel and me were reminded by some stuff over there. hahas.after that we went home together with our BURTNS and tiredness.

*char
really learnt alot from you through this gathering.you're someone that is always conscious abt how you're feeling or behaving.you never fail to evaluate yourself and i'm really glad that you can put up with my foul temper.with you,i'll rely on you.you never fail to teach me and help me in e areas that i've to grow in -hugs- love you so much.

*cel
thanks for that little sms when u alight.it was really a heartwarming sms.so glad that we're together always. heez...really enjoyed my day with you (^^) thanks for being here with me,always -hugs-

*jonteoh,min hui,lester,kamaruddin
thanks for putting up with my foul temper yesterday but nevertheless,i enjoyed all of yr presence!

*jeremy
thanks for that little msg u left in yr blog.but...my name is NOT separated!! hahas.

-double sigh- though i know that i'll get darker in e few days to come,i'm having a hard time now to sLp!! cuz e burnt are juz so so painful!! *ouch* my body is RED in color now!!

hmms...was thinking of some stuff at the beginning of this entry.and i think that i've been thinking alot since yesterday when we were out of sentosa...-sigh- enjoy is what you take delight in.
she fluttered at 9:19 AM
Wednesday, September 10, 2003
yeahx!! my mum bought for me that giodano's tank-top!! hahas.she bought 2!! heez..so happy.it was so so nice!! after that took train with her and babygirLx and i alighted at bishan...was in bus 88 when there was this unpleasent smell...it smells like SHIT!! oh my goodness!! endured till my fren's hse -blehh- then borrowed shirt and had a short talk...hahas.then went off ard 2.50pm to take bus 105...met wen bin on bus so brought him to RC cuz he nv been there before...

mcg was fun and corny! i believe that everyone enjoyed! *cLaPz* to everyone who had contributed to e laughters, participation and those behind e scene who had organised this.loudest applause to God.without Him,non-believers won't turn up. O_O my hp is now swaying... hahas.hope it WON'T drop...heez...i LLoovvEE e hp so so much! before cg start played dai dee with maria,sha nui,joo and ah bao.hahas.had a fun time manx! esp. when joo's first round,she threw e 2 out! hahas.she thought it was e smallest...--;; hahas.then all went into e room to mingle with e non-believers and we had a great time! =) after that we had games together as a region.chocolate,seafood and me was totally amused by walmond's action.he was being forfeited for twice! hahas.and he was made to sing "happy birthday" song and his hand posed like "beng"...hahas.seafood was saying that he sang as though ppl owe him money like that...hahahas...

met up with char after that to do some shop shop for tmr's outing!! hahas.i make her wait for me 15mins. hahas. and we went to 2 hp shops to see see hps.char and cel is thinking of changing hp to 7250...hmms... i'm thinking of changing together.hahas.nvm...see e pricing first.and she bought e giodano tank-top too!! hahas.

received an unexpected sms.hahas.and my goodness!! my sms for this mth is gonna BURST!! *sulks*

*ssshhhouts* tmr is gonna be a extreme fun day!! heez...sentosa!! -chants on-

*sin hui
ahh...i miss u BADLY.real badly.its been so long since i see you...i'm so glad that u're always that understanding towards my schedule.really,though we seldom hang out together u still treasure this little sweet friendship we have.logically speaking we might have drifted far off if u didn't cling on to it cuz u've alot of friends ard you who hangs out with u more than us.each time yr sms-es comes,u nv see e smile that juz rose from deep within of my heart.and u often melt my heart with yr heartwarming words.there's nth that is gonna cut off our communication with each other.lastly,i appreciate of yr presence in my life and e prints u'd left,truly treasure you and LLoovvEE you deeply. -hugs- is all i could tell u now.
she fluttered at 9:11 PM
My heart is captivated Lord by You alone
Captured by the awesomeness of You alone
Melted by the grace and mercy You have shown
I stand in wonder

I reach to You the one who make the blind eye see
Who breaks the chains of sickness with authority
Restoring what was broken
So it may fly again

I live to worship You
I breathe to worship You
All of my days
Your face I will seek

For as I worship You
You lead me to the place
To the place of divine exchange

Jesus...
Wonderful name

i'm so bounded by Your love. *melted*

supposingly to attend geo. lesson today but i somehow nv attend it.hahas.hanis is ever so gd!! hahas.i'm gonna study!! can't slack ard too much esp. when i didn't even touch a bk yesterday!! argh!! yeahx!! tmr is coming very soon! hahas.oohs,afternoon going to meet my daddy and mummy for some walk ard.hahas.attending mcg first and leave ard 4.30pm...finally i can spend some time with my mummy after 2 weeks? *yeahness* not gonna jog today i guess.hahas.


this little heart of mine had been deeply captured by You
that the heartbeat is for You alone.
how could i ever deny that "i love You?"


she fluttered at 9:42 AM
Tuesday, September 09, 2003
so tired...attended training and i enjoyed alot.hahas. seriously i think when there is NO seniors ard training is much more relax =) hahas.ran 20rounds ard e court, 3 X 4 laps,50 free throws by 5 ppl.60 lay ups by 11 ppl. hahas.then is match. quite nice e match.after that was dead tired and went home...didn't bathe then went to sLp already...and when i wake up i was dead stink -blehh- i will NOT sLp without bathing ANYMORE.woke up at 4.30pm cuz supposed to wait for mummy's phone call and go and buy this shirt but then she last min told me that she'd to work till 8pm which leaves me in my disappointment mood...haiis.went to bishan to watch soccer instead and it was my very FIRST time watching LIVE soccer match.hahas.quite nice...home united VS tampines.though home united is a sure win team but i act. supported tampines for today cuz they start off quite well...there was this corny player in home united and his name was so ever corny (^^) pratically most of e ppl are making fun of e player's name. hahahas.. and e score was 3-0.hmms...think i'm gonna hook on to soccer already.hahas.don't mind playing though.

-sssshouts out loud- "yeahx!!" thursday coming so so soon!! hahas (^^) gonna enjoy my day manx!! all of us(char,cel,jonteoh,min hui,kamar,alfonso,jason and me) are so so looking forward!! hahas...and trust me,we're gonna wake up very early and go there to enjoy! gonna make myself darker!! -chants on-

*piggyx(in reply to my guestbook)
same sentiment! i've no idea what had bonded us but i believe that we start off this with Christ in e center and i truly believe that we'll be with each other and Christ for eternal.words can never explain e thing that had brought us together -hugs-
she fluttered at 11:14 PM
Monday, September 08, 2003
=) holidays have started for high sch ppl while poly ppl have ended their holidays!! hahas *evil laughters* anyway,gonna study study study this holidays!! to catch up with my sch work that i'd been slacking all e way. hmms,went ard reading bloggies and hahas. most of e northeast bro + sis blogged abt e champion!! hahas.and i'll say it one last time...northeast is e CHAMPION!! hahas -beams- yesterday we also spent time appreciating e ppl ard us after e game ends...and...

*paLx
a simple hug for u consists of thousands words and feelings that you know i want to tell u.you know e little sweet smile that was shown on my face means lots.

*piggyx
thanks for everything.thanks for coming up to me and give me e little tight hard and assure me again "we'll complete this race together." it was a great encouragement to me -hugs u tightly-

heez...happy birthday to my beloved linda!! =) enjoy ur day yeahx girLx? seen ur love and how u allowed God to change u...praise God.continue to desire more of Him and we'll run this race together!! =)
she fluttered at 9:39 AM
Sunday, September 07, 2003
-beams beams- NORTHEAST IS THE CHAMPION!!! hahas.not boasting but we're really happy that we're e champion!!
click here to see today's champion's photo!! -beams-
e sweet smile that rose from e hearts of each individual.

didn't blogged for days and here it is!

*friday
had a fruitful day.went shopping with linda and after that went for PM though we was late for 20mins? hahas. then went for rehearsal.stayed over at RC and really enjoyed myself much!! thanksdaniel for his sacrifical spirit by buying e apple juice and e ice-cream!! *yums* it was really nice!! we havoc e place till 1.30am like that then voon,paLx and me knocked out...hahas.

*saturday
didn't turn up for training cuz stomach was pain and had slight headache.went to nexus early to accompany voon and i sat down at e middle section and sLp...learnt sth during PM and service was so -thumbs up!- "king of majesty" makes me really sing out from this little heart of mine =) hahas.and shifu went for service!! with e botak hair...hahas.

*sunday
-beams beams- family day!! e long-awaited day that e WHOLE youth was looking forward to!! reached there ard 11.35am and we started to do some markings and i was assigned to help junhuang and ruth.e games was all -thumbs up!- and really bonded e ppl together in e way or another.though e first few games we didn't manage to top,but e last game,we WON!! -beams beams- there's always this unity when we are together.cuz without unity and love, we couldn't have rescue out our dear eeLee.


together we are in this race,
a race that we know we're running together with our Father.
with unity and love,
the impossible had became possible
and this little smile that comes from the heart of ours
shows on our face.
throught thick and thin,
we will stay together and bonded even closer.
cause behind all this,
it is our Heavenly Father that is in the center of our life.

amen northeast?


she fluttered at 7:42 PM
Thursday, September 04, 2003
-sway my hair- hahas.back half an hr ago? eeLee!! yeahx!! we went swimming!! hahas.shall do that once a week okay?? hahas.and i did my 20 laps while she did her 12 laps! hahas.not bad not bad.on e way back to RC had a nice talk with her...=) and left RC together with seafood.took bus 853 and seafood alighted at rix hse there. called my contacts in e bus...muz really pray hard for tmr's confirmation.

-beams beams- today cg praise was quite high.hahas.we sang "one day" and "king of majesty"! ahahs.first time cg sing service song.but e sight of ppl praising and jumping is really nice.that everything is unto God. celebrated linda's birthday which is next monday. hahas.thankspenguinnie for e "apple and aloe vera drink"

tmr is gonna be a fun and fruitful day for me.tmr will receive progress card.then after sch going to shop with linda and then proceed to NE PM and "family day" rehearsel!! hahas.after that we're gonna STAY OVER at RC!! -beams- but sad thing is sat i'm going for training...hahas.
she fluttered at 10:52 PM
Wednesday, September 03, 2003
philippians 4:13 i can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me.
ahh God...i need strength for everything that i'm gonna do for You.


-breathes- today had been a great great day =) e only sad thing was lib. comp. also can't check emaiLz -sigh- so went to RC and prepare for cg.cg was great juz that i shld prepare more for "in the name of Jesus" cuz i thought i would know e whole chords.we played balloons as games which it really freaks some of them out. hahas.we celebrated yu wan's birthday! and yes,yck gonna break into a cg soon!! -chants on- retain is all we need now. after cg went jogging alone.did a 6rounds,50 sit-ups and 13 push-ups(is that what it calls?) and went back to RC to wait for voon.left RC at 8pm and went to my fren's hse to get camera and blank discs.hahas.and saw pasar malam...wanted to walk but didn't ask my fren.hahas.anyway,it doesn't look appealing...hahas. then stand and chatted for awhile =) -sigh- i guess my bill for this mth is gonna burst BIG time.with e color hps that i'm using and e endless sms-es that i'd been sending.hahas.but guess what?last mth my bill dropped by 16bucks!! -jumps ard- hahas. -blehh- juz realised that e camera doesn't show e photos nice at nitex cuz it doesn't have flash.nvm. gonna bring for tmr's cg!! hahas.tmr's praise is gonna be different!! hahas.and i'll have a real late nitex tonight cuz i wanna play well for tmr's praise and worship =) and i've work to do too...

family is approaching soon.but before that,it seems to me that my whole is surrounded by church stuff...that includes me of visiting RC almost everyday! hahas.and it was really my 3rd home!! hahas.sounds weird eh? tmr going to jog with eeLee? i not sure...she wannt swim.but i can't.hahas.and fri my unit seed ppl gonna stay over at RC!! -beams- for some purpose...xD

*for piggyx
if u're reading this now,rem. to bring xiuhui's bag tmr okay? so that i can get e ripcurl bag from her.thanks -hugs-

*for hui xin
miss u alot...nv see u for so many DAYS. -counts finger- a total of 5days!! but...-jumps ard- gonna see u tmr!! -beams-

listening to:: one day
she fluttered at 11:36 PM
Tuesday, September 02, 2003
-beams- i've lost 2kg!! -jumps ard- i'm so happy!! hahas.and i'll continue to keep myself fit and to lose weight!! ahahas.

yesterday was a fruitful day.went to RC early supposingly to help do e NBs gift but i'm not gd at handicraft and when i reached they(joo,nemo,huishi) was hungry so i went to 7-11 together with joo and nemo. after that when we came back debbie reached already.when paLx reached already they started to practise for cg404's worship.i sat beside them and see how they practise cuz my desire is to lead a gd worship where ppl's life will be changed and touched and my life with God will be closer too =) teaching was done by daniel and it was so corny! sihan shared his testimony too! after meeting we went to stadium together to reharse for family day's games and cheers!! hahas.we all enjoyed.then i jogged together with rain for 6 rounds which at e last 2 rounds paLx and joo joined! hahas.then at ard 7+pm jogged again with eeLee, jiong yao and dc but then dc jogged so fast. hahas.after jogging i dragged eeLee to do sit-ups!! hahas.and i played e "monkey bar"...haiis.i can only do half of e whole thing...i'm aiming for e WHOLE bar!! to and fro too!! hahas.then ian,walmond and sihan came back from jogging.so corny.so yesterday i jogged for 8 rounds!! -beams- after that went back to RC and we smelled rat's shit.so all started to smell themselves. hahas.daniel,jessie,seafood,debbie,eeLee,paLx,dc and me had dinner together at RC then sihan brought up dc's apple juice!! -smiLes- i was so happy cuz i love apple juice!! healthy drink!! hahas.then dc was so gd to pour me a glass.hahas. but then sihan also poured 1 glass for me *sLuRpz* so i drank abt 1 1/2 glass cuz i shared with paLx and debbie.after dinner we played a game to decide who will clean up e RC,plates etc. and daniel was so corny! hahas.paLx and me left early cuz i think it will be quite late for me to reach home when i'll be having sch today.was so happy when i was in e bus. hahas.and i muz tell u ppl that i love e sight when e bus travel pass bishan mrt's service place.with all e lights that shines so nice...hahas.and i'm so glad to be able to step out of the miserable ring i'd lived for 1 week.hahas. -blehh- yesterday i sLept at 1.30am!!

this morning was shocked to see my hp showing "6.22"...i overslept by 22 mins!! -blehh- then rushed to sch and was drenched when i alight from e bus cuz it was pouring heavily.so happy...hanis not changing back hp with me so soon...means i can play with e camera and MMS!! hahas.i'm gonna bring to sentosa next week!! -beams- but i guess that my bill gonna burst for this mth.hahas.hanis said that we like treat each other's hp like our own... dun wanna return...hahas -grins-
she fluttered at 8:11 PM
Monday, September 01, 2003
psalm 119:10 i seek You with all my heart; do not let me stray from Your commands.
Lord,get me back to Your side with Your commands.that in every way,everything will be pleasing to Your sight.


had "family day" meeting yesterday and i muz say that it's gonna be a fun day!! and guess what?i'm helping ruth and indian man; jun huang!! hahas.-calls out- to those who haven't sign up,go sign up this coming sat! and i was surprised how come YWAM-ers also came. hahas.so they were supposed to help out also...hahas. after meeting went off with sharlene.she's another corny girLx.hahas.then went to orchard to meet paLx. then linda came together with us.so we went far east and walk walk...then i bought this pair of slipper that i'd long for so long...so happy that i'd finally gotten it!! so my heart skips a beat.linda love that slipper too.hahas.then we saw some nice skirts at far east which makes linda's heart skipped faster.sent her off at orchard station and we continued our walk.we walked until somerset there and didn't know where to go...so we juz walk down to meridian and we took a bus to esplanade!! -beams- there was a performance there by cat ong and grp i think.it was nice...e drummer's voice was nice.hahas. after e performance we sat down by e side and talked abit.e breeze was so so nice =) it has been a long time i go esplande to enjoy.i think my last visit was 1+ mth with my fren.there is juz so much so much that i could reminicse at there.left esplande ard 10pm and we took bus 56.passed by jac,joo and my fren's hse.

cg404 meeting is at 2.30pm.after which gonna practise for "family day's" cheers.hahas.gonna create havoc at RC! ahahs. tmr training starting!!


what people see is a strong side of me,
a face that is filled with smiles and laughters.
but deep inside,
there's this different side of me that is saying
"i'm not strong."

there's just so much things to say
that i don't know where to begin it with.
i could hardly breathe when everything goes stagnant.
all i know was
you'd captivated me.


she fluttered at 8:54 AM
 

  revealed.`

+jiayi
+060488
+loves siMpsOnx
+yhope//MIS//sound//neb1
+deb`sheep
+phs//basketball//4devotion
+175669108
+a nice 7points for 'N' level
+ emaiLz/msn
+ scribble!

.
beautiful moments.`
+ BBQ
+ careleaders
+ coreteam
+ courageous camp
+ dangers!
+ evax day
+ faith camp
+ family
+ kbox
+ match at sas
+ moments
+ neb
+ siMpsOnx
+ soccer cg
+ steamboat
+ teachers' day
+ 17-05-03
+ 05-11-03
+ 08-11-03
+ 3devotion'03

.
each individual.`
+ aaron
+ ah xiao
+ AJ2
+ amelia
+ cheow hong
+ chen pei
+ cherie
+ chew yee
+ clarence
+ debbie
+ dehui
+ ding cheun
+ eelee
+ ethan
+ esther
+ evelyn
+ germs
+ gwen
+ huixin
+ ian
+ irene
+ jacob
+ jaime
+ janis
+ jason
+ jeremy
+ jessie
+ jian cong
+ jia shen
+ joanne
+ joel
+ junhuang
+ junxiong
+ kokok
+ lausanne
+ linda
+ lisin
+ meiyan
+ puay
+ qian jin
+ ray
+ rain
+ reagan
+ ron
+ ruichen
+ ruth
+ samantha
+ sean
+ sheralyn
+ shi hui
+ shila
+ shirley
+ sophia
+ wynnie
+ timothy
+ valneo
+ wendeline
+ xiuhui
+ yanyan
+ yihui



.
left behind.`
+ guitarjia
+ musicgirLx
2003
+ july
+ august
+ september
+ october
+ november
+ december
2004
+ january

.
unveil my eyes.`
i want to lift my eyes and see
the plans You have for me
to share Your dreams for this
reveal to me

i want to know You more and more
to be Your bright and shining star
so that in my life
i'll do what You will do

take my hands and hold me near
reveal to me Your plan
i'll make it all become
a part of me

all i have belongs to You
this hands i lift to You
Lord,
let Your Word watch over me

show me Lord each and every day
the best i can ever be
for when i'm found in You
that lay me at Your truth
that's when my

eyes they finally see