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| Wednesday, December 31, 2003 |
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when i tear,
i wish for your presence to be here. that your shoulder may let me cry on. "eyes finally see" had been running through my mind over again.the casts,the song and the meaning that's within and how i'd feel abt it.like what jacob had written, "to be Your bright and shining star".i just want to be one. woke up real early and traveled down to raffles to get my new hp,GD88.like it,or rather, LOVE it aLOT -hugsdaddyandmummy- then went down RC and penguinnie was so good to give me a tuition on maths.mans,she must have had a hard time to teach a difficult student.had lunch with penguinnie and piggyx.i just love it -hugspenguinnieandpiggyx- met up with char at bishan and went town to get our sch's stuff though i'm e only one who bought a sch bag that i like which later realized that it looked like someone elses bag. rushed down for games comm. retreat and we had a fun time sharing abt what we'd learnt and how we can improved on it.i must say i love the things i'd done throughout e day. but things don't seem so well after i sat down and talked to dad.it just make my tears roll down.how can i ever be like Jesus who can talk so nicely? -shrugs- right now,i'm still tearing.i know i've to be strong.i've to make decision when i don't feel like at all.i chose it. she fluttered at 12:37 AM |
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| Tuesday, December 30, 2003 |
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what more can i ask from You,
O Lord? xD had a fun fun time yesterday! met up with rain at junction8 to take neos and to buy e steamboat food! hahas.-sighs- my memory is getting lousier.i remembered e time wrongly! -bahhs- anyway,we had a fun time taking neos! hahas. then we pushed e trolley around NTUC getting e stuffs we need.until a point that we've to give up some stuff cuz we dun have enough money! hahas.steamboat started ard 5.30pm! hahas. snapped some picx too! during eating shared our new year resolution too! hehes.it was then we started to crapz around.-bwahahas- how pppiigz is northeast ppl? hahas.everyone cheong into e room when we said that "the banquet is open to all".hahas.then we started clearing up and went home~ hehes.well,i must say it was a fun time of gathering and letting out hair down xD was being a meanbean when i was at NTUC.received sms-es and calls but just didn't pickk up...-sigh- how mean can i be? she fluttered at 12:29 AM |
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| Monday, December 29, 2003 |
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through this one year,
i thank you for your accompany. -beams- xD yeahx!! i might be able to buy my hp tmr~! hehex~! daddy called me juz now which is how come i'm awake now.Gd88 -chants on- wOo~!! realized that i've been waking up later and later.-sigh- this is BAD.sch starting on this fri.exams on next monday.so fast yeahx?when sch start,its another yr of rushing.daddy had been telling me over and over again that i've to do well in my studies.before sLeeping God also reminded me of "God 100%, Man 100%". wanted to sLp at ard 12.10am,was lying on my bed.however,was thinking aLOT of things that in the end i only able to sLp at 1.28am.deleted some stuff before i went to sLp and was pondering aLOT of things.before that was sort-of scolding cel in MSN then realized that i'd been too emotional and too harsh towards her.so apologise to her.hahas.she's the best manx~ always tolerate my attrocious attitudes.told her some stuff and she made this comment "choose between _____ or _____.its good..its time to do it also cuz you always want to buy didn't".then on my comp. and saw 2 MSN thingy.talked to char online for a little while then return to bed.piaNgz...was woken up by the paper that fell off e bookshelves.give me a shOck! my heart literally gonna juMp outz. *piggyx where you??!! i haven't been seeing you for a long long time.i'm missing you badly. a few more days to 2004.i wonder if i should be happy or sad -letsoutabigbigsigh- she fluttered at 10:41 AM |
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| Sunday, December 28, 2003 |
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i'll not forget what we've talked tonight;our vision.
that will and must come to pass xD -grins- so nice of today! hahas.able to complete another 4chapters of F&N! but still think that i could do 1 chapter more.gonna and a MUZ to complete e WHOLE F&N tmr manx! wanna study and really excel in my studies for God and to show my parents! to be a salt and light in wherever i am.today's service was a -thumbs up!- at e beginning of e praise i badly wanted to go down manx~ until when e poly/di ran down,it was then bro,lunnie,nemo and me ran down too~ and guess what? *wHaTz?!* i broke my sLippers! =/ at first was so paiseh manx~ but later heck care! hahas.thanksameeelia and her girLx for helping me to get a pair of new sLippers! hehes.i was so amazed by e sLippers cuz i think it was nice! hehes~ really love it.it was cheap too~ 7bucks only! hahas.during sermon stomach wasn't very good.after service went PS together with paLx.had pastamania for our dinner.manx~ i muz say that it was -thumbs up!-. it was my first time having it~ hahas.cuz i usually don't spend so much on eating.but their food is oily too~ after that had a little stomach pain~(only paLx know whyy! hahas) then went shop around.after that we sat down at "starbucks".bought a drink and starting talking.it was a rrreal nice talk! shared out everything and we were sitting down there visualizing something! hahas.(paLx,piggyx,penguinnie! rem. our vision? heh hehx~) as we talk,our heart beats faster! hahas.we really enjoy~!! sat down their till abt 11.15pm? we could stay there longer! hahas.continued our conversation some more in e train.realised that we always get into serious stuff when we're on our way home.ohhs...!! just love tonight so much! xD *linda -hugs- take care okayys? e letter that you gave me is really heartwarming! xD love you dear *wiNkz* *paLx ohhs...!! yes! we're gonna see e vision coming to pass! xD *siMpsOnx we've GROWN.much more.we're not just gonna play but guiding each other in e area of studies too! we're gonna study together and see each other doing well in academic results as we grow in our friendship too! -hugs- she fluttered at 1:35 AM |
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| Saturday, December 27, 2003 |
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i want to lift my eyes and see
the plans You have for me to share Your dreams for this world reveal to me i want to know You more and more to be Your bright and shining star so that in my life i'll do what You will do oh take my hands and hold me near reveal to me Your plans i'll make it all become a part of me all i have belongs to You this hands i lift to You Lord,let Your Word watch over me show me Lord each and every day the best i can ever be for when i'm found in You then lay me at Your truth that's when my eyes they finally see she fluttered at 9:44 AM |
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| Friday, December 26, 2003 |
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food and nutritionified.
yYyyeEeoOoooWwwwhOoo~!! spent my day at home to study =) completed 7chapters on food and nutrition.shall continue some more tmr! -nods nods- tmr there's training! hehes.shall wake up at 6am(tryyy) to study before going for training! *wiNkz*~!! she fluttered at 8:51 PM |
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ripped from seafood; a cry survey
:: Do you cry often: depends :: Do you often cry in front of people or alone: alone :: Have your friends ever seen you cry: yupps. :: Have you cried today: nope.just wake up lehhs. :: Do you usually cry for a long time: not really. :: Do you get really red when you cry: not really. :: Have you ever cried because you were happy: yupps. :: Have you ever been someone's "crying shoulder"?: yupps. :: Have you ever hugged someone because they were crying: yupps. :: Have you ever had a shoulder to cry on: yes. :: Have you been hugged when you cried: yes. :: Do you cry during movies: only 2 movies. :: Do you cry while reading books: not really.unless i'm not concentrating larrs. :: Does music make you cry: yes. :: Have you ever been called a cry baby: nope. :: Have you ever tried to stop yourself from crying: think so. :: Have you ever cried in front of a teacher: yes. :: Does this survey make you want to cry?: -rolls eyes- :: Have you ever cried over a guy/girl: yupps. :: Do you cry when you are physically hurt: NO. :: Do you cry when you are scared: no. :: Do you cry when you are mad: yes. :: Do you cry over bad grades?: nope. :: Have you ever cried over spilled milk: no. :: Can you make yourself cry: whyy fakke? :: When was the last time you cried: don't wanna say. :: Have you ever cried because you were sad for someone else: yes. :: Do you have a favorite crying quote: -rolls eyes- :: Have you ever cried for anyone who wouldn’t cry for you: -dUh- :: Do you ever cry on anniversaries of things?: don't think so. :: Will you cry because this survey is over: stewpid. she fluttered at 10:17 AM |
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| Thursday, December 25, 2003 |
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you made me smile this christmas.
now at deb's hse.hahas.playing "piggy" soon.heh hehs.at this kind of hr.wOoaH~ yesterday's service was gggreat! it was indeed a banquet that i wouldn't wanna miss.the drama,music etc were -thumbs up!- after that received 2 presents.hehex.i find it quite hilarious.hahas.received quite aLOT of prezzie this yr.cards too.went RC together with daniel and i asked him the lame questions.he went --;; hahas.reached RC and started to practice the songs together.initially was quite difficult cuz i couldn't rem. it.during the chorographing time it was hilarious! xD started carolling ard 7.30pm? O_O!! can't believe that kokok can snapped 2 strings within 1hr? hahas! hMms...i think it started off quite dead.but we prayed abt it and i prayed too! wOw~ God is indeed a gd God.He bless us throughout the carolling =) hahas.kept smiling so that it'll be a nice carolling.hahas.carolling ends ard 11.10pm? but we raised a total of $884.50! our goal for both days was $1000.but we prayed to God that we want a goal of $1000 just the nitex alone.and indeed God didn't fail us,we did our best and He blessed us! *cLaPz to God* daniel treat us drinks! hahas.cuz he promised us that.i was rather crappy throughout the nitex.heh hehs.ohhs,i learnt to pray MORE.praise God.heh hehs.i love this yr's christmas though i didn't went countdown.it was then i realised that it doesn't make much difference. ahh~!! i want to join them for carolling tmr!! shall see how.hopefully can.hahas xD she fluttered at 3:53 AM |
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| Monday, December 22, 2003 |
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because i love you too much,
i'll pray and pray for you, once again to be strong. wOoaH!! hehes.so hhhhaappppyyy!! yyyyaAahHhOooo~!! i bought the OP dress! hehes~!! that lovely red drrreess! *wiNkz* ohh wells,my dear dear linda came over to my hse for me to shepherd her! hahas.lesson was short but i enjoyed much of e conversation we had after that! it was -thumbs up!- nice nice xD after that met up with char at yishun station and went to j8 to buy e OP dress. heh hehx.after that walked ard...didn't see more nice clothes.char bought a jacket from "bum equippment"...it was NICE! hahas.then entered "mini toons" and saw all that cushy stuff! hahas.it is ccuuttte and niceee okayys!! hahas. okayys! jiayi's been a discipline girLx today.she woke up at 7.30am and started her revision at 8.40am! hahas.she's determine to do that,so as to excel in her studies! by the grace of Her Heavenly Father,she'll be a discipline girLx! -nods nods- xD she fluttered at 11:57 PM |
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| Sunday, December 21, 2003 |
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when you cry,
my heart cries much more. follow-up was alright today.-sigh- is my sense of direction getting lousier? hope not. hahas.follow-up was funny.found out more stuff! it somehow brought me back and reminded of how i were when i was a new believer back then.how innocent were i then? a girLx with a simple heart and simple faith.doing everything just to please the God that she love.wOw~ i'd changed.both gd and bad.nvm.i'm getting back on track, to the path that i'd chosen =) after that went down to RC and laze ard at there. wanted to go home ard 6pm but heard that eeLee wanted to play "risk" and when i was abt to decide to leave,she arrived.hehes.so had a game, though didn't complete it,i'm considered e winner! wOoaH~ first time playing! well,e game makes me think.however,find that game a bit boring.got corrected too.but i praise God for that.learnt my mistake and apologized =) wanna change in my character wise.add alot of fried stuff before i left.met mummy at cold storage~ hehex~ was calculating how much i would need to buy my new yr clothes! wOo~!! hehex~ can't wait to go shopping,carrying LOTS of bags!! *wiNkz* was on the bus and decided that i've to plan and use the notsomuchdaysleft to do my studying for e upcoming exams on e first week of school.wanna glorify and excel in my studies,to be a gd testimonial to e ppl ard me! (^^) listening to:: hen hao she fluttered at 11:14 PM |
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see the smile
that's smiling from within. -smiLes- had a gggreat service! wOoaH~ can see that everyone gave their best to put up for e service! went for 1st service and gotto know more ppl! hahas.find that jiemin and lausanne are gggreat girLx to know! always wears e sweeet smiLes on their face! hahas~ wOo~ serangoon garden is growing...!! hahas. felt like a smiler during first service! hahas~ but its great to see e ones you loved smiles right? (hinting to e 2 person i smiled during 1st service.hahaa~) 2nd service was rather busy~ cuz went out and missed a part to fetch linda~ hahaa.but its alright! xD oOhs~ i've got a NEW sHeePz!! hahaa.from serangoon garden! *wiNkz* during worship sang "throne of grace".brought back so much nice memories that i once had.and i thank God that i'm still in this race.a race that i WANT to complete =) throughout e service i learnt and understand some stuff =) its a revival for JIAYI!! -nods nods- ganbate jiayi! ahahas~ went to shop with piggyx after her dinner.bought a ssskirt!! wOo~ hahaa. nice manx~ heh hehx~ love to be with her...it was a sorealjiayi~ hehex~ love you piggyx~ its a joy to see people growing and leading the people.esp. e ones i'd treasured so much =) she fluttered at 12:41 AM |
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| Saturday, December 20, 2003 |
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when it explodes,
you'll see everything bursting out. the roads were beautify by the sparking lights that had been hung up.as i stroll down the road,it just brought me back of how we had once enjoyed.i just want to stroll down once again,with you,at our very own pace,enjoying the scenes again. it wasn't that long that i realised time flies so fast,that i couldn't stop the time and look back at how we'd came to be.until when i decided to stop my world from moving, i see you. often i sensed your presence to be with me,and how you're feeling.but i do not know what to do to make your spirit lifted up again.it brings sadness to see you in the stage where everything came crashing down on you. like now,i know that you're busy with your stuff somewhere out there.i'll be still and pray that you'll be bless throughout everything you're doing. she fluttered at 10:08 AM |
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| Friday, December 19, 2003 |
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Jiayi, when it comes to psychic abilities, you have an unusually strong talent in the area of Precognition
This means you have an uncanny ability to look into the future and know ahead of time what is going to happen. You might, for instance, simply know that you're going to get that job before the interview even happens with a certainty that exceeds what you would expect to have simply knowing the facts of the situation. You might have a sense of dread before going out for the evening only to later have a flat tire on your way home. These little hunches are easy to ignore but for you especially, quite often lead to a true prediction of what is going to happen. These predictions can be used to generate positive outcomes, and the more you know about how to use your talent, the more you will be able to distinguish between fantasy of the future and an actual reality you are seeing happen, before it has actually happened. While your strongest psychic talent is Precognition, Emode also analyzed your psychic strengths in: Retrocognition: The ability to know what happened in the past. Clairvoyance: The ability to "see" the unknown. Remote viewing: The ability to see physical objects at a distance. Telepathy: The ability to tune into others' thoughts she fluttered at 8:58 PM |
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| Thursday, December 18, 2003 |
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yes,i'm missing my dearest penguinnie BIG BIG time! she fluttered at 11:46 PM |
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through tough times,
i know that you're still there when i need. This is a very interesting article, must read. Jerry is the manager of a restaurant in America. He is always in a good mood and always has something positive to say. When someone would ask him how he was doing, he would always reply, "If I were any better, I would be twins!" Many of the waiters at his restaurant quit their jobs when he changed jobs,so they could follow him around from restaurant to restaurant. The reason the waiters followed Jerry was because of his attitude. He was a natural motivator. If an employee was having a bad day,Jerry was always there, telling the employee how to look on the positive side of the situation. Seeing this style really made me curious, so one day I went up to Jerry and asked him, "I don't get it! No one can be a positive person all of the time. How do you do it?" Jerry replied, "Each morning I wake up and say to myself, I have two choices today. I can choose to be in a good mood or I can choose to be in a bad mood. I always choose to be in a good mood. Each time something bad happens, I can choose to be a victim or I can choose to learn from it. I always choose to learn from it. Every time someone comes to me complaining, I can choose to accept their complaining or I can point out the positive side of life. I always choose the positive side of life." "But it's not always that easy," I protested. "Yes, it is," Jerry said "Life is all about choices. When you cut away all the junk, every situation is a choice. You choose how you react to situations. You choose how people will affect your mood. You choose to be in a good mood or bad mood. It's your choice how you live your life." Several years later, I heard that Jerry accidentally did something you are never supposed to do in the restaurant business: left the back door of his restaurant open one morning and was robbed by three armed men. While trying to open the safe, his hand, shaking from nervousness slipped off the combination. The robbers panicked and shot him. Luckily, Jerry was found quickly and rushed to the hospital. After 18 hours of surgery and weeks of intensive care, Jerry was released from the hospital with fragments of the bullets still in his body. I saw Jerry about six months after the accident. When I asked him how he was, replied, "If I were any better, I'd be twins. Want to see my scars?" I declined to see his wounds, but did ask him what had gone through his mind as the robbery took place. "The first thing that went through my mind was that I should have locked the back door,"Jerry replied. "Then, after they shot me, as I lay on the floor, I remembered that I had two choices: I could choose to live or choose to die. I chose to live." "Weren't you scared?" I asked. Jerry continued, "The paramedics were great. They kept telling me. I was going to be fine. But when they wheeled me into the Emergency Room and I saw the expressions on the faces of the doctors and nurses, I got really scared. In their eyes, I read 'He's a dead man.' I knew I need to take action." "What did you do?" I asked. "Well, there was a big nurse shouting questions at me," said Jerry. "She asked if I was allergic to anything." 'Yes,' I replied. The doctors and nurses stopped working as they waited for my reply. I took a deep breath and yelled, 'Bullets!' Over their laughter, I told them, 'I am choosing to live. Please operate on me as if I am alive,not dead'." Jerry lived thanks to the skill of his doctors, but also because of his amazing attitude. I learned from him that every day you have the choice to either enjoy your life or to hate it. The only thing that is truly yours that no one can control or take from You is your attitude, so if you can take care of that,everything else in life becomes much easier. it was a very inspiring emaiLz that i'd received. *to my fren whom i'd been harshed to by using the word "shuddupz",i'm sorry.didn't mean it to.thanks for telling me to be positive towards e situation that i'm in now and that you were always there when i needed e most =) God has a purpose behind every problem. He uses circumstances to develop our character. In fact, he depends more on circumstances to make us like Jesus than he depends on our reading the Bible. The reason is obvious: You face circumstances twenty-four hours a day. Jesus warned us that we would have problems in the world. No one is immune to pain or insulated from suffering, and no one gets to skate through life problem-free. Life is a series of problems. Every time you solve one, another is waiting to take its place. Not all of them are big, but all are significant in God's growth process for you. Peter assures us that problems are normal he said "Don't be bewildered or surprised when you go through the fiery trials ahead, for this is no strange, unusual thing that is going to happen to you." God uses problems to draw you closer to himself. The Bible says, " ~The Lord is close to the brokenhearted; he rescues those who are crushed in spirit."Your most profound and intimate experiences of worship will likely be in your darkest days-when your heart is broken, when you feel abandoned, when you're out of options, when the pain is great-and you turn to God alone. It is during suffering that we learn to pray our most authentic, heartfelt, honest-to-God prayers. When we're in pain, we don't have the ene rgy for superficial prayers. When life is rosy, we may slide by with knowing about Jesus, with imitating him and quoting him and speaking of him. But only in suffering will we know Jesus." We learn things about God in suffering that we can't learn any other way. God could have kept Joseph out of jail, kept Daniel out of the lion's den, kept Jeremiah from being tossed into a slimy pit, kept Paul from being shipwrecked three times, and kept the three Hebrew young men from being thrown into the blazing furnace'-but he didn't. He let those problems happen, and every one of those persons was drawn closer to God as a result. Problems force us to look to God and depend on him instead of ourselves. Paul testified to this benefit: "We felt we were doomed to die and saw how powerless we were to help ourselves; but that was good, for then we put everything into the hands of God, who alone could save us." You'll never know that God is all you need until God is all you've got. Regardless of the cause, none of your problems could happen without God's permission. Everything that happens to a child of God is Father-filtered, and he intends to use it for good even when Satan and others mean it for bad. Because God is sovereignly in control, accidents are just incidents in God's good plan for you. Because every day of your life was written on God's calendar before you were born, everything that happens to you has spiritual significance. Everything! We are like jewels, shaped with the hammer and chisel of adversity. If a jeweler's hammer isn't strong enough to chip off our rough edges, God will use a sledgehammer. If we're really stubborn, he uses a jackhammer. He will use whatever it takes. dont just get angry cos you can't do it. because you really can't. the fact is that God can. Every problem is a character-building opportunity, and the more difficult it is, the greater the potential for building spiritual muscle and moral fiber. Paul said, "We know that these troubles produce patience. And patience produces character."What happens outwardly in your life is not as important as what happens inside you. Your circumstances are temporary, but your character will last forever. The Bible often compares trials to a metal refiner's fire that burns away the impurities. Peter said, "These troubles come to prove that your faith is pure. This purity of faith is worth more than gold" A silversmith was asked, "How do you know when the silver is pure?" He replied, "When I see my reflection in it." James said, "Under pressure, your faith-lift is forced into the open and shows its true colors." Since God intends to make you like Jesus, he will take you through the same experiences Jesus went through. That includes loneliness, temptation, stress, criticism, rejection, and many other problems. The Bible says Jesus "learned obedience through suffering" and "was made perfect through suffering." Paul said, "We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we're certainly going togo through the good times with him!" Problems don't automatically produce what God intends. Many people become bitter, rather than better, and never grow up. You have to respond the way Jesus would. Remember that God's plan is good. God knows what is best for you and has your best interests at heart. God told Jeremiah,"The plans I have for you [are] plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Joseph understood this truth when he told his brothers who had sold him into slavery, "You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good." Hezekiah echoed the same sentiment about his life-threatening illness: "It was for my own good that I had such hard times." Whenever God says no to your request for relief, remember, "God is doing what is best for us, training us to live God's holy best." It is vital that you stay focused on God's plan, not your pain or problem of the fact youve no time. God gave you time. in ecclesiastes, it says there is a time for everything. a time to sow, a time to reap. That is how Jesus endured the pain of the cross, and we are urged to follow his example: "Keep your eyes on Jesus, our leader and instructor. He was willing to die a shameful death on the cross because of the joy he knew would be his afterwards." remember! If you look at the world, you'll be distressed. If you look within, you'll be depressed. But if you look at Christ, you'll be at rest! Your focus will determine your feelings. The secret of endurance is to remember that your pain is temporary but your reward will be eternal. Moses endured a life of problems "because he was looking ahead to his reward." Paul endured hardship the same way. He said, "Our present troubles are quite small and won't last very long. Yet they produce for us an immeasurably great glory that will last forever!" dont you wanna show God what a great testimony of His you've been? Dont you want to show the world HOW BIG YOUR GOD IS? Don't give in to short-term thinking. Stay focused on the end result : "If we are to share his glory, we must also share his suffering. What we suffer now is nothing compared to the glory he will give us later." Rejoice and give thanks. The Bible tells us to "give thanks in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you in Christ Jesus." How is this possible? Notice that God tells us to give thanks "in all circumstances" not "for all circumstances." God doesn't expect you to be thankful for evil, for sin, for suffering, or for their painful consequences in the world. Instead, God wants you to thank him that he will use your problems to fulfill his purposes. The Bible says, "Rejoice in the Lord always. "It doesn't say, "Rejoice over your pain." That's masochism. You rejoice "in the Lord." No matter what's happening, you can rejoice in God's love, care, wisdom, power, and faithfulness. Jesus said, "Be full of joy at that time, because you have a great rewardwaiting for you in heaven." We can also rejoice in knowing that God is going through the pain with us. We do not serve a distant and detached God who spouts encouraging clichés safely from the sideline. Instead, HE ENTERS INTO OUR SUFFERINGS. Jesus did it in the Incarnation, and his Spirit does it in us now. God will never leave us on our own. refuse to give up. be patient and persistent. The Bible says, "Let the process go on until your endurance is fully developed, and you will find that you have become men of mature character... with no weak spots." Character building is a slow process. Whenever we try to avoid or escape the difficulties in life, we short-circuit the process, delay our growth, and actually end up with a worse kind of pain-the worthless type that accompanies denial and avoidance. When you grasp the eternal consequences of your character development, you'll pray fewer "Comfort me" prayers ("Help me feel good") and more "Conform me" prayers ("Use this to make me more like you"). You know you are maturing when you begin to see the hand of God in the random, baffling, and seemingly pointless circumstances of life, like now. when you are facing trouble right now, don't ask, "Why me?" Instead ask, "What do you want me to learn?" Then trust God and keep on doing what's right. "you need to stick it out, staying with God's plan so you'll be there for the promised completion." Don't give up-grow up! really, this is a point to grow. You've to be a good stewardship of time - something God has blessed you with. remember John 16:33 "...in this world you will have trouble. but take heart! i have overcome the world." for our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.2 Corinthians 4:17 it is the fire ofsuffering that brings forth the gold of godliness. *piggyx thanks for e little counselling we had over MSN.you made me understand so much more things that i'd nv know before -hugs- she fluttered at 2:43 PM |
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Jiayi, you're a Rock Star!
People are impossibly attracted to you wherever you go — whether or not you know it or not. There's something about the confidence you emit through your actions, conscious and otherwise, that compels people to want to come in for a closer look Jiayi, your subconscious mind is driven most by Kindness People who have unconscious minds driven by kindness can be very resilient when challenges arise. They can also possess a positivity that is uplifting to others. she fluttered at 8:05 AM |
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| Wednesday, December 17, 2003 |
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i love you daddy.
(^^) had a nice nice day! went out to celebrate daddy's birthday.start off at harbourfront where we took some picx of that christmas tree~ after that walked ard for a little while then went down to orchard.saw some nicey clothes which really puts me in e shopping spree mode! hehex.yeahx~ mum's buying me that OP skirt~! -grins- after that came back home ard 7+pm and celebrated dad's birthday with e swwweeetttt cake that sis got from "sweet secrets".hahas.it was reallyyyy a sweet cake that left all of us to grab e cold drink~ hahas xD she fluttered at 10:11 PM |
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| Tuesday, December 16, 2003 |
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on the brink of giving up.
this very moment, i wish for your shoulder for me to cry on. i could no longer hide everything that's within.the very moment you asked me of my revision,my heart cries.i tried to be positive,but one has to face the fact.with so many stuff that have to be completed,tell me,how can i not be worried? 8 subjects to be completed in 12 days.wOw.i muz have a super brain manx.
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the first time i left my
tears on your shoulder. wOow.how long is that for me not to be home for 6 days and 5 nitex?hahas.was act. away for excellent camp.and stayover at sinhui's hse on sunday nitex after returning home to put down my bags. day 0 got free ride by ray who came my hse to transport all e games logistic from my hse.woke up at 7.15am and went to bathe.came back and found out that i've got 4 missed calls and were from e same person,ray. -bwahahas- think he guessed that i still haven't wake up.hahas.carried everything to e truck and went down to tpy's market to meet germs to collect e food.head down to winfield to unload e stuff and were left alone together with edwin.stoned until ray,davin and royston came back and helped to carry e stuffs around.wOo~ met up paLx at city hall and went swee lee to get some strings + spectrums.packet food for e sound team ppl~!! hahaa.we had a fun time eating + crapping!! xD -lalalas- then we played ard in e hall while others were busying preparing for e camp! learnt a little bit more on sound set up.had a late nitex due to e packing of all e games stuff + discussing of e wetweatherplan. hahas.fell asleep for abt half an hr while discussing! sLept ard 4.45am. day 1 - i'm loving it! had a fun time doing e games! however,also had a nice time experiencing God's power! e weather wasn't gd ard 3pm+ but God solved it all! was praying consistantly for e weather to be gd.seen e anxiousness in each face while they were playing e icebreaker finale! hahas.e opening MM cLiPz was -thumbs up!- wOow! e air-cons were still as cold as ever! was act. wearing 2 jackets!! -____-"" day 2 - spiritual giftings brief e various houses for e mega game finale.supposed to brief but in e end ben brief all for me.heh hehx.after that went for workshop and had a nice time.discovered my present spiritual giftings! missionary,administration and mercy + hospitality.had a real nice time of praising and worshipping God! wOow! it was gggreat! sad that couldn't jump! -sighs- had a late nitex though cuz got games comm. meeting for e next day's mega game finale wetweatherplan. sLePt ard 3.10am~ day 3 - mega game! had a real real nice time sabotaging e ppl~!! hahaa.e smiles on their face makes us just go smiling ard~ what an wonderful time we had + e grace of God was upon us to make it an success! -grins- global connection were just so nice! had a gd time of laughing too!! ahahas~ didn't sLp that nitex.was playing basketball,sharing with my unit,played guitar and then to e hall to play guitar + talk + crapped with joel,seafood,ilovext and phiax. day 4 - break camp the day which no ones looks forward to.and yes,we ought to learn from debbie for her spirit she possessed =) stayoever at sinhui's hse and i really doze off after awhile.so they did e jelies without me till jer kwei's phone call came in,making me not to be able to sLp! *roars!* woke up and left hse ard 10+am to have our breakfast and went to yishun to meet e rest! xD had a real fun time of playing + BBQ-ing at east coast~!! reached home ard 1.05am? heh hehx.snapped alot of stuff~!! uploading them now. *shepherd thanks for your understanding towards my busy schedule during camp and also to teach me! *paLx thanks for e few rounds we'd made + all e stares we did during camp! hahas.you rawKz! xD *piggyx thanks for that hug + shoulder to cry on and those short conversation we had during e camp.i'll never forget it =) lots of stuff wanted to just spill it out but couldn't do it. she fluttered at 3:57 AM |
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| Wednesday, December 10, 2003 |
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in the middle of the night,
i sat down there, strumming down the strings, with the most innocent heart. crying out to God. i was confused and had the most mixed feelings, i decided to pray, the voice,the prayer that were out of my mouth, were all so simple and innocent. and the prayer goes like this. "God,i ask for Your favour to be upon us,to grant us a fine weather where everyone will enjoy.the words are simple,i'm praying from my most innocent heart". started worshipping after that prayer and was reminded by God when i was singing "more of You,Lord"; "can't live on my own,can't live without You." -sigh- i should LEARN to trust + rely on God.matthew 6:33 she fluttered at 1:37 AM |
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i don't wish for the
rain to come. -sighs- now is like 12.55am?! *ywans* i've to wake up early tmr.hmms,i'm seriously having mixed feelings now.whether to allow myself to feel stress or angry.-rolls eyes at my fren- who hung up e phone without any reason.-looks around- guess i'll be sleeping on e floor tonight.with e SO MANY stuff in my room,i really dun have e strength to move ard anymore.yes,i shall go and sit down and worship God, at least before camp,i've to prepare myself + my heart + pray for e God blessed weather. "jiayi! stop listening to sun yanzi's song!" yes,i SHOULD do it NOW. -bahhs- i've got e urge to beat up ppl.maybe,is my fren. "rejoice at the unexpected things when it comes". she fluttered at 1:00 AM |
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| Tuesday, December 09, 2003 |
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longing for the first love
that i once experienced. wOoah! tmr will be staying over at windsfield!! hehes.full of excitement now *wiNkz* + -hops around- went bugis to buy e logistic stuff and manx,i felt that my face was so "dao".hahas.hmms,glad that e amount we bought was below of how much we've planned in e first place! hehes.after that got a little struggle of carrying e stuffs ard. took bus 851 and shiyan came to my hse to put e stuff. thankGod that it rain after we reach home.hahas.so laze ard for awhile before we decided to stop lazing and went to NTUC to buy e other stuff.ohhs.it was SO heavy that i decided to take cab back home.hehes.-looks around- O_O!! my room is filled with all e stuff that is needed for games! hahas. yeahx! tmr helping out with e set up for sound.but then i think i'll reach earlier than e rest...which means,i'll be left alone until 11.15am!! -bahhs- games comm. ppl will only reach at nitex time! hahas.gotto call up lots of ppl to confirm e logistic later! busy!!! -bwahahas- guess i'm just MAD =/ she fluttered at 5:51 PM |
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unveiling my heart
to see the world with a smile. got woken up by pokk's call which result that my hp dropped to e ground and got dismented(wronggg spelling).so decided to wake up since i've to get out of e hse by 12pm to shop for logistic.-bahhs- i really dun wish to carry so many stuff down to bugis all by myself!! *suLkz* hMms...i'm e sound IC for e global nitex for camp!! -bwahahas- it sound so exciting! *wiNkz* hehes.oh my oh my...i haven't pack finish my camp things!! tmr i'll be going down already!! -bahhs- it is so FAST! heh hehx. felt like i'm a goner.a goner for...stuff -sigh- she fluttered at 10:32 AM |
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| Monday, December 08, 2003 |
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the undivided love
remains unchange. wOoaH~!! camp is SO fast and SO near! -counts finger- 2 more days for me! -bwahahas- yeahx!! games comm. staying over on wed nitex! *wiNkz* gonna sort out e logistic stuff and pack them according to e games needed! oHHS! yesterday studied maths at penguinnie's hse.it was quite okayy. problem dun lie on her but on me.was super tired therefore my concentration was rather low -sigh-.after that accompanied her to have her dinner and we chat on a rather interesting topic! hahaa.then took bus 70 and fell asleep.really tired. supposed to meet char yesterday to get my water bottle but was so tired that i decided to go home first.hahas.so was busy settling e games comm. logistic thingy and was on e phone with pei for abt an hr! hahas.then went to pack my camp bag when my fren called and chatted for close to an hr? then called pokk to talk abt camp thing.then sLePt ard 3am! wOow~ overslept this morning!!! woke up at 8.10am when my seed is like at 8.30am?! got e shock out of my life and faster get prepared and rushed outta hse! hahas.-sigh- my seed-mates failed to fake me! they pretended that they were worshipping when i enter! -_____-"" but they've their successed part! they fake me that chocolate and eelee was sleeping in e room and i really believed!! -bahhs- left ard 10.45am for games comm. meeting then realised that everyone was late! hahas.so was being rather kuku to walk ard PS in e early morning.luckily sinhui called me!! heez...x) then we chatted on e phone before pei called me to tell me go to office to print e notes.hehex.well,it was a joy! x) was rather tired in e afternoon so was rather quiet.hmms,yeahx!! e feeling of shopping was really gggreat! hahas.went to buy e prizes and wOw~ there were like 5 pkts of things for me to carry? heez...tmr doing logistic! yeahx!! BUT then,i've to carry down all e prizes to bugis...-sigh- that is like...so HEAVY! -bahhs- my eyes could hardly open fully now.am just so tired. she fluttered at 10:49 PM |
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| Saturday, December 06, 2003 |
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i wish for the child-like faith
i once had it before. hOo~!! tired!! hahaa.was rather tired this morning + a little stomach pain so didn't went for training.attended prayer meet and WFL after serveral weeks of missing it.got refreshed! today's service was nice! hahaa.reagan and daryl rapped "word to the Father".it was...NICE! *cLaPz to both* -bwahahas- today's preacher was alan tea.he really have a style of preaching! hahaa.learnt much from him too! (^^) his testimony really encouraged me and reminded me to be a salt and light at home!! -nods- i just need to be one if i want to see my family coming to know God.after service laze at nexus and was talking to paLx. hahaa.went to cuppage then realised that i left my books at reception.so went back to take.had dinner with my grp ppl after like 2-3 weeks?it was nice! then did my duty for MIS once again! -smiLes- went home together with my grp ppl xD nice fellowship we had! *wiNkz* ohhs.i've something that i couldn't contain any longer...and that is...ilovemysheepz!! x) *blushes* she fluttered at 11:30 PM |
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| Friday, December 05, 2003 |
 What attracts people to you? brought to you by Quizilla she fluttered at 11:59 AM |
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when we're brought together,
it brings laughters and joy. xD had sound retreat today! it was fffun!! -grins- we went to aah's working place and ate iiiccceee-cccrrreeeaaammm!! *yuMz* she treated each of us a sundae!! wOo...i ordered cookies and cream,mango and mint choc~!! *yuMz* it was superb! -nods- then e gUys went to BK to buy fffood.hahas.then after e girLz finished eating, we went to BK and get our food. -bwahahas- what a pppiigz we were! hahas.then we started playing "piggy" by passing e card rather than snatching e card.cuz we know that we will create lots of noise! ohhs... jiashen and stephen were e losers...and they treated us A sundae.hahas.it was vanilla + chocolate...i ate e vanilla cuz i think it was nicer... hahas.then guess what? *wHaTz?!* penguinnie and i didn't kanah AT ALL!! ahahas.then rushed down to nexus for music pract. and zihui,penguinnie, ameeelia and stephen were eating snAkes...they didn't do sound... they went to e back to play "bOmB"...hahaa.me and aah only played once!! and i lost...-______-"" music pract. ended ard 10pm but i stayed till e end... which was like 11.15pm? hahaa. ohhs...was walking back home and rem. that i saw ms tan today...she permed her hair!! -sigh- then she asked me if i've studied.okayy...i know...i NEED TO STUDY! -nods nods- self-discipline + self-control comes in. she fluttered at 12:46 AM |
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| Thursday, December 04, 2003 |
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they're meant to be kept as pets,
not food. -sigh- so sad...juz now received an email from my sister.its abt china ppl killing cat and cooking them!! -bahhs- how can they be so CRUEL??!! sadist...why human eats everything? which includes cats and dogs??!! they're meant to be pets!! not FOOD!! -bahhs- inhuman...!! while looking at e picx i cried...so cruel of them to kill e pets!! -sigh- some more they're juz kittens...so cute and adorable!! -bahhs- i dun understand human for being so cruel!! seeing e cats in china,i pity them...then i told my cats that they're fortunate to live in singapore...to have beds and gd food to eat... -sigh- humans are difficult to understand...!! she fluttered at 1:56 PM |
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i simply dragged myself out
of the comfort zone. -bahhs- *ywans* fffeeeeeeling so tired now.-sigh- who ask me to talk on phone till like 2.05am? hahaa.but it was quite a hilarious chat with my fren.my fren's sense of humour increased! -bwahahas- was so tempted of skipping today's training by saying that i'm still having flu.but everyone in e team is also having flu! hahaa.so decided to go for training.oHhs!! i'm still amazed by this comment i'd made "pls go and read other ppl's blog to enhance your blogging skill" -bwahahas- anyway,i juz read my fren's blog entry.hmms...seems like there's an improvement? hahaa.nvm.tmr's games comm. meeting is changed to 3pm!! hahaa. means i can leave e hse later which my mum won't be too unhappy abt it. heez...-touches my head- "i like your head when its in e morning", okay,this comment was made by ms ttturtle pppiigz when she woke up yesterday morning!! hahaa.i miss my discman...but then...i feel like getting a new one... hahaa. i see my one until quite bored already!! -bahhs- nvm...my priority is to get a nice + gd digital camera of MY own!! no need to share with my sister!! hahaa.and then i'll go around, snapping anything at anywhere!! wOohoO!! -beams- later got sound retreattt!! hahaa.meeting penguinnie before that to go PS to check out some stuff!! ahahas. listening to:: the moment she fluttered at 7:45 AM |
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| Wednesday, December 03, 2003 |
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every moment,
she's fighting against the time. *ywans* i'm tired.though i had a day rest.ohhs.let me start off with yesterday. hmms, had fruits cg and it was rrreally nice!! -grins- took up e roles that i hadn't done it for a very long period of time! and yeahx! i like e way i chair! hahas. however,worship i've to improve more! -nods- learn! after that went down to meet cel and we walked for a little while at causeway before going tampines mall.wOo~ she's a qUeen manx~ she managed to get e amount of clothes with that kind of budget she'd set! am amazed! hahas.well,e clothes ain't that bad afterall.i bought a berms too! or rather,izzit counted as shorts? hahas.it was in piNk color! hahas.after that she came to stayover and she was busy playing gunbound!! -_____-"" sLePt before her but managed to talk to her while i'm sLeePing...hahas.amazed by myself toO~ this morning woke up and wasted my morning by playing gunbound + sLaCking around...-sigh- muz be more discipline and muz have self-control. O_O!! camp's coming!! its gonna be nice!! but it means that...games comm. gotto buck up more!! hahas.we still got loads of stuff to be completed!! nvm...by e grace of God,we WILL complete! -smiLes- had a short chat with germs juz now...heh hehx.tmr having training and then sound retreat!! wOo...first retreat...heh hehx.then going for music practice tOo...friday another hectic day cuz gotto meet up with e chiefs and elders!! heez...am so cRazy over e new printer my dad had gotten.was rather busy scanning photos and uploading too!! hahas.but i've one thing to say,i'm so happy to have this printer!! hahaa!! xD listening to:: shen qi she fluttered at 11:16 PM |
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| Tuesday, December 02, 2003 |
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you're just someone
i wouldn't want to lose. o.O dead tired.woke up at 7.06am to pack bag and go for later's training.sLept at like only 1am yesterday? -sigh- holidays ain't like holidays for me.sLeeping less than 7hrs a day is definitely NOT enough for me when i spent like e whole day outside.feeling so stress yesterday when i reached home.had loads of stuff to complete.looking at my present schedule makes me wanna cry.had a nice chat in MSN with my fren and was advised to bring books ard whenever i travel.that i may at least read up.shall do this.i just gotto squeeze every little bit of my time out to study. time don't turn back for me and don't stop for me.and if God give each and every 24 hrs,it is definitely enough to complete e things that is supposed to complete within that day.matthew 6:33 i'm just so blessed to have friends who cares and helps me when i need e most~ (^^) ohhs!! my dad bought a newww 3-in-1 printer!! wOos...so nice...hahaa. she fluttered at 7:57 AM |
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+ BBQ + careleaders + coreteam + courageous camp + dangers! + evax day + faith camp + family + kbox + match at sas + moments + neb + siMpsOnx + soccer cg + steamboat + teachers' day + 17-05-03 + 05-11-03 + 08-11-03 + 3devotion'03 |
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+ aaron + ah xiao + AJ2 + amelia + cheow hong + chen pei + cherie + chew yee + clarence + debbie + dehui + ding cheun + eelee + ethan + esther + evelyn + germs + gwen + huixin + ian + irene + jacob + jaime + janis + jason + jeremy + jessie + jian cong + jia shen + joanne + joel + junhuang + junxiong + kokok + lausanne + linda + lisin + meiyan + puay + qian jin + ray + rain + reagan + ron + ruichen + ruth + samantha + sean + sheralyn + shi hui + shila + shirley + sophia + wynnie + timothy + valneo + wendeline + xiuhui + yanyan + yihui 
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+ guitarjia + musicgirLx 2003 + july + august + september + october + november + december 2004 + january |
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i want to lift my eyes and see the plans You have for me to share Your dreams for this reveal to me i want to know You more and more to be Your bright and shining star so that in my life i'll do what You will do take my hands and hold me near reveal to me Your plan i'll make it all become a part of me all i have belongs to You this hands i lift to You Lord, let Your Word watch over me show me Lord each and every day the best i can ever be for when i'm found in You that lay me at Your truth that's when my eyes they finally see |
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