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| Saturday, November 29, 2003 |
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misery is sometimes inevitable
when one thinks too much. today did my first observation of sound.felt so anxious when it was about to start cuz everyone was rushing here and there,setting up e stuff and royston was busy doing sound check for e hosts.for me,i just stand at e sound booth looking at what each is doing cuz i couldn't help much.-sigh- service start and everything was so fast.it was a different service.it was nice! was looking forward to e short film; eyes finally see.it was nice.but somehow,it makes me to ponder whether to laugh or to cry. esp. when e song "eyes finally see" was being played.it was so touching.it left me to hold back e tear that was abt to roll of my cheeks. after service went to meet my family for dinner.lost my temper when i was talking to my dad on e phone.then i was pondering,why do i wear different mask when i'm in church and when i'm not? didn't Jesus wants me to be more like Him? repented and tried talking to my dad nicely when i met him up.had a nice dinner near my mum's working place.after dinner,bro in-law drove us down orchard road to see e lightings.passed by e place i had countdown last year.but i think that this year's countdown i'll be alone. how should i be fffeeling? -sighs- i dunno.i can't even decern what i'm thinking inside.just bringing misery to myself i think *cries* she fluttered at 11:02 PM |
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till this very day,
i know the real you. you've got a sharp and sweet tongue which makes you going around attracting people to you.potraying a cool and quiet character that makes people to respect you.but who knows that out of this place,you changed.you put on a mask where no one had ever expected it.the words that you'd said before becomes the thin air which is nothing. you put on different masks wherever you're in,that people will think that you're the best of all.because of this character you have,you make me lose respect and trust in you. she fluttered at 10:11 AM |
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| Friday, November 28, 2003 |
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the spirit is willing
but the body is weak. -bahhs- sickkkk!! got fever and feeling really helpless and alone because no one is at home.mum asked if i would wanna see doctor but i dun want.oOhs... had a gd chat with aah before music pract. hahaa.went for music pract. yesterday and i learnt aLOT of stuff.EQ,groupings,plucking of e mics etc. but aah said that let me learn some first else later my brain will burst.hahas. oOhs...i'm in e sound team already!! -grins- hahas.thanks to jiashen who asked aah.so i'll be following penguinnie tmr as she do duty *wiNkz* gotto find my black wool jacket for tmr's duty!! heez... supposed to shepherd my sHeePz today and to go down to print stats...but now that i'm sick so can't do anything...-sigh- sad sad.but...heez...my sHeePz is gggrowing!! -beams beams- i'm so happy (^^) must pray more for myself and for my sHeePz...!! xD she fluttered at 12:03 PM |
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i'm getting tired.
i wish for your shoulder for me to cry on. having headaches,on off fever and a little sort throat.my brain is killing me.everything that's within is pushing my brain to burst at any second.don't wish to think anymore. just want to cry out everything.
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| Thursday, November 27, 2003 |
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in everything i do
i put Him in the picture. o.O leaving for training soon.tired...!! supposed to wake up at 6+am to go for 10rounds but was too tired so skipped it.nahhx~ shall do it later or what.haven't even pack my bag since i came home yesterday~!! -bahhs- cg is at 2pm...going down straight from training but i'll have like...1hr free?! hMms...arGh~ today my schedule very bits and pieces...cUz got frEe times whiCh makes me dunnO what to do...gotto go pack bAg!! listening to:: you will never walk alone she fluttered at 7:50 AM |
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| Wednesday, November 26, 2003 |
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though body was tired,
the joy within was great. back from my break of not blogging.hahas =) spent my days fruitfully doing e work for e my dear dear Heavenly Father (^^) went for games comm. meeting yesterday morning at bras basah and we had a fun time laughing and crappying,not forgetting to improve and to give out task to each. met up piggyx at tampines mall and went walking ard?went gym and did some exercise and had a little touch on tennis! wow...i hadn't touched that racket for like 3yrs?however,i still rem. how to play! hahas.revised bio with e help of her! wOo...so happy! hahas.i'm now so inspired by e way she do her life! she does planning for her daily weeks! wanna learn and grow in this area.that i may be a gd steward to e time and days my Father had given me.wants to read more and pray more abt my life.not wanting to waste this one and only life i'll have =) ohhs! and she was so sweet of planning my days with e beautiful drawings on my planner! hahas xD went down windsfield today and tried out e games.i must say...it was...superb! -thumbs up!- its gonna be nice -chants on- after that we went to toa payoh to have our meeting and it ended like ard 8.40pm? i must say that being in any camp comm. is not easy.however,i learnt to communicate better and to plan + be more faithful with e tasks that i'm entrusted to xD learnt to work with joy and not just ritual.love it! love it! love to work so much! -grins- having training tmr morning! hahas.after that going down for cg.nitex having music pract. and yes,gonna be a gd steward to my time...so i shan't waste any time! gotto have some discipline of not spending too much time online. *piggyx thanks for that staying-over at yr hse =) love it.seen e way you lead yr life and how much you'd grown and matured in Christ! love you this little piggyx i've got.am inspired by you and yes,you taught me LOTs of things that i should do! -hugs- love you to bits *wiNkz* listening to:: the moment she fluttered at 11:59 PM |
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| Monday, November 24, 2003 |
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let Him be the one i seek
as i open my eyes each morning. this entry is to rem. that i'd a nice nice chat with piggyx just now.a really nice chat we'd got.know her even better! -smiLes- she's not just someone whom i piggyback but someone who gives me advice and listens to me.teaches me how to plan and shared with me how she go through her final yr together with God.wow. am just so grateful and thankful that i'm in Hope.if i'm not,i'll be rotting somewhere else. she taught me to make a simple prayer each morning as i wake up,committing my day to my Heavenly Father up there =) she's e one who told me that passion comes from God and my greatest passion should be God.she's e one that tells me that when we play music to God,we wants to lift up His name and that everything comes from Him.she's the one that helps me to understand God in a different way and that when i do things,think of how God is.all i want,is to seek after Him with a heart that's willing to obey and to allow Him to guide over my life,rule over and to rely Him. all in all,i just wanna say this short sentence, iloveyoupiggyx. won't be blogging for a period of time i guess. she fluttered at 2:11 AM |
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| Sunday, November 23, 2003 |
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won't be blogging until i'm sure of what i'm thinking. she fluttered at 9:45 AM |
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ripped it off yan's friendster bulletin!
I AM: jiayi -nods nods- I WANT: to get slimmer!! -nods nods- I HAVE: a bunch of buddyz whom i trust xD -beams- I WISH: to be a electric guitarist! hahas! I HATE: to be betrayed.to be alone and to be cheated! -bahhs!- I MISS: the kind of zeal i've got when i was a NB. I FEAR: end times. I HEAR: the noisy air-con. I SEARCH: for fun x) I WONDER: why am I so fat and so noisy. I REGRET: of why i didn't study hard during PSLE and e things i'd said before *suLks* I LOVE: God,family and siMpsOnx!! -beams beams- I ACHE: whenever i sLp on e floor for too long I ALWAYS: think of things that lead me to no where. I AM NOT: the one that you think i am.i'm beyond what you see =) I DANCE: in my room.hahas. I SING: everyday! *wiNkz* I CRY: when i think too much and sad. I AM NOT ALWAYS: noisy. I WRITE: in blogger.com! hahas. I LOSE: my heart. I CONFUSE: people who are more blur! ahahas! I NEED: to slim down!! -nods nods- I SHOULD: buck up and plan for my next 2 yrs! Yes Or No... x. You keep a diary: -dUh- (i'm using it to post this!) - http://www.rhapsody-of-youth.blogspot.com x. You like to cook: quite okay. x. You have a secret you have not shared with anyone: not really. x. You believe in love: true love. The weirdest person you know: weirdos? The Loudest Person you Know: joan. The Sexiest Person you Know: dunno. The Cutest Person you Know: not sure. Your closest friend(s): my siMpsOnx family! -beams- x) The People that Knows the Most about you: God and siMpsOnx. Do You...? Have a(any) crush(es): yeahx *blushes* Want to get married: -dUh- hahas. Get motion Sickness: nope. Think you're a health freak: nope. Get along with your parents: yeahx! Like thunderstorms: sometimes.hahas.weird right? -lalala- NATURAL HAIR COLOR: black. CURRENT HAIR COLOR: black. EYE COLOR: black. BIRTHPLACE: kk hospital. (FAVORITES ) NUMBER(s): 8 COLOR(s): red and blue. DAY(s): everyday. MONTH(s): april,may,november and december! SONG(s): countless! FOOD: century egg porridge and fish and chip SEASON: winter. SPORT: badminton,volleyball...LOTs. DRINK: milo and green tea. ( PREFERENCES ) CUDDLE OR MAKE OUT?: hmms? CHOCOLATE MILK, OR HOT CHOCOLATE?: hot chocolate. MILK, DARK, OR WHITE CHOCOLATE?: depends. VANILLA OR CHOCOLATE?: vanilla. ( IN THE LAST 24 HOURS, HAVE YOU.... ) CRIED? yepp. HELPED SOMEONE? yepp. BOUGHT SOMETHING? yepp. GOTTEN SICK? yepp. GONE TO THE MOVIES? nope. GONE OUT FOR DINNER? yepp. WRITTEN A REAL LETTER? nope. TALKED TO AN EX? nope. MISSED AN EX? nope. WRITTEN IN A JOURNAL? yepp. HAD A SERIOUS TALK? don't think so. MISSED SOMEONE? siMpsOnx HUGGED SOMEONE? hugged 'bro',piggyx and penguinnie! -hugs more- FOUGHT WITH YOUR PARENTS? nope. FOUGHT WITH A FRIEND? nope. FOUGHT WITH UR CAT? nope. she fluttered at 1:31 AM |
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| Saturday, November 22, 2003 |
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i know exactly
what kind of life i wanna live. -smiLes- i smell so nice now.compared to e smell i have after my training.am so proud of myself cuz after of so many days of not waking up at 6am,i,jiayi,managed to do that today!! hahas.went stadium to jog before my training.nice 10rounds.must keep up to it! thought that i was e earliest for training but who knows that shihui and lisin reached earlier than me! hahas.training was kind of fun? hehs.oohs...i attended e WHOLE training! hahas.had a sort of "dialogue session" after training ends.speak out our view and opinion and how we can bond each other even closer so that we can together,work as a team to play well for next yr! heh hehs.ohh manx~!! i think i missed today's WFL!! -bahhs- mummy supposed to be home but she went back to work O.T. -bahhs- i think i got a little bit of sunburnt!! hahas.my face is a little painful now. was on e bus just now and i very much wanted to blog a very simple sentence.so here it is ilovemymummy sweet right?and yes,i told her abt a mth ago? hahas x) listening to:: the moment she fluttered at 1:55 PM |
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| Friday, November 21, 2003 |
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this sweet smile that is on my face
tells a thousand words within. -beams beams- games comm. meeting was long but at least we settle most of e agendas that we supposed to settle! hahas.it was nice to have ilovext ard. she really brings her laughters into e meeting! learnt how to do things more detail =) meeting ended ard 8.40pm.hahas.had a fun time talking to pei and germs in e train.heh hehx.tmr having training! -grins- trying to wake up earlier to go jogging before attending training.hahas. -beams- had a nice nice chat with sinhui in MSN!! *wiNkz* so nice...she was looking through e "siMpsOnx" album and i went to look at it also...so thankful to God for everyone that He'd placed in my life. ..if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: four of us muz muz muz take picture together when we go for BBQ okie?? - nostalgic for memories. says: yes!! - nostalgic for memories. says: -ssccreamx- - nostalgic for memories. says: i really love you guys ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: yeahx!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! - nostalgic for memories. says: really.i'm really thankful to God that He had place e 4 of yr in my life.. - nostalgic for memories. says: make my life so so wonderful.. *censored* - nostalgic for memories. says: but then really. - nostalgic for memories. says: sometimes i juz went "wahh"... - nostalgic for memories. says: of how we came and became who we are and where we are(at our diff. schools studying) ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: hahas ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: sometimes i will juz suddenly be reminded of uall - nostalgic for memories. says: ya lorr. - nostalgic for memories. says: for me is when i'm alone.. - nostalgic for memories. says: then think of alot of things.. ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: yup ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: i oso - nostalgic for memories. says: u pretty manx!! - nostalgic for memories. says: both physica and in e eyes of siMpsOnx ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: hmmm.... ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: okok ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: u win - nostalgic for memories. says: -beams- - nostalgic for memories. says: unless u wanna DENY siMpsOnx.. - nostalgic for memories. says: ooPs.i typed so BIG worrx. - nostalgic for memories. says: hahas ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: aiyo ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: i dun dare wor - nostalgic for memories. says: but if u decided to concentrate on studies i'll give my fullest support to you ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: heh heh ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: thankz - nostalgic for memories. says: of cuz.. - nostalgic for memories. says: after God then is my family then you all already ...if there was another chance for me to choose, i would rather not love him as loving someone is really very tong ku... says: -beams- - nostalgic for memories. says: -beams beams- - nostalgic for memories. says: hahas!! oh my goodness...i think i can't use anymore words to describe what i'm feeling too. feeling worried for my fren too.not worried but...i don't know what word to describe. -wonder- how's pretty's fever now.iloveyouguys.ohh wells,better turn in early. tmr having training! hahas x) she fluttered at 11:38 PM |
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who says no one understands?
at least,i'm willing to listen. -beams- back from music practice an hr ago?it was gggreat! learnt about e mic thing and how to adjust e volume.thanks to my dear dear penguinnie and also matthew and jiashen! heh hehx.had a great time talking to penguinnie in e sound booth also! hahas.felt like a little child listening to her =) enjoy her presence *wiNkz* ohhs! know what? *wHaTz?!* e both of us were singing e christmas caroline song in e sound booth and we were practically swaying! oh my goodness! hahas.wOo...now my friendster like got 110 ppl? hmms...but my testimonials is so little! hahas. *hint hint* ppl reading my this entry and have me in your friendster...do sth! hahas.didn't manage to stay throughout e practice cuz penguinnie cannot reach home too late.hahas.so we took cab home! and thanks to her who foot e bill...yes,penguinnie,we'll go satay club one day alrights? promise =) well well.class BBQ had been postpone again.prayerfully it'll fall on 20-21 dec! hahas.but then,securely to say that pri. sch's BBQ is fixed on 15dec! one day after camp! hahas.i've alot of energy eh? heez...tmr shepherding at my hse! hahas.but i'm going jogging in e morning.prayerfully it'll not rain! really have to exercise already...else i'm just growing fatter and fatter which i hate it e most...!! -blehh- tmr having games comm. meeting too!! wOo...heh hehx =) listening to:: tian hei hei she fluttered at 1:17 AM |
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| Thursday, November 20, 2003 |
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my heart can never settle down
unless you come.  Your soul is bound to the Burning Rose: The Rapture. "I go where my heart beckons me, and I go with my head high. But sometimes, I get a need until I bleed so my heart swims above my head." The Burning Rose is associated with passion, intensity, and desire. It is governed by the god Eros and its sign is The Flame, or Physical Love. As a Burning Rose, you can get lost in the moment if you let yourself. You are a very physical person, be it in relationships, work, or play. You may be driven by your hormones sometimes, but you know it's because you have to follow your instinct. What Rose Is Your Soul Bound To? brought to you by Quizilla -sLaPz jiayi- what you thinking??!! why kept on sighing? like sighing solve problems? NO!! -shakes head-
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| Wednesday, November 19, 2003 |
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tired and lost
yet reluctuant to find the way back. i know. -His love,His grace and His mercy for me. -the people around me loves me.(right?!) -that i've a grp of friends i can rely on. -where my passion is at. i don't know. -why people refuse to respond. -why people wants to crucify Him over again(includes me cuz of -what my mind is thinking. -why people make me lose trust in them and make me heartbroken. life is fragile it comes and it may stay. but you'll never know what will happen next. they don't tell you that they're leaving. it'll just leave you out of the sudden. she fluttered at 6:04 PM |
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so does AJ family
have almost the same for everything?  you're a positive thinker. everything has a bright side for you Are you depressed or extremely happy? brought to you by Quizilla -bwahahas- same result as AJ2.hahas. what if. -God couldn't take the time to bless us today because we couldn't take the time to thank Him yesterday? -God decided to stop leading us tomorrow because we didn't follow Him today? -we never saw another flower bloom because we grumbled when God sent the rain? -God didn't walk with us today because we failed to recognize it as His day? -God took away the Bible tomorrow because we would not read it today? -God took away His message because we failed to listen to the messenger? think about this one... -God didn't send His only begotten Son because He wanted us to be prepared to pay the price for sin. -the door of the church was closed because we did not open the door of our heart? -God stopped loving and caring for us because we failed to love and care for others? -God would not hear us today because we would not listen to Him? -God answered our prayers the way we answer His call to service? -God met our needs the way we give Him our lives? she fluttered at 3:10 PM |
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that's when,
my eyes finally see. -beams beams- e song is nice.its nice! (^^) wAt u R iS GoD's GiFt 2 U. wAt u BcUm iS yOuR gIft 2 God says: sometimes i dunno wat u r thinking.. wAt u R iS GoD's GiFt 2 U. wAt u BcUm iS yOuR gIft 2 God says: about. - nostalgic for the memories. says: ya lorr... - nostalgic for the memories. says: i dunno.. - nostalgic for the memories. says: only celine knows.. - nostalgic for the memories. says: why u suddenly say me like that? wAt u R iS GoD's GiFt 2 U. wAt u BcUm iS yOuR gIft 2 God says: Ur mind and the things you said... sometimes i ask you, you r not sure of yourself ... hmm.. so that's why...i say that -sigh- i don't know what i'm feeling -bahhs- she fluttered at 11:10 AM |
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| Tuesday, November 18, 2003 |
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i long for the day when i pick up the bow
and strum down the strings like how i used to be. i like my blog now.hahas.at least it looks better? loved e violin that have been posted up.it looks so so nice.was feeling nostalgic while looking for the picx. she fluttered at 11:53 PM |
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the radiant smile that was on your face
makes my heart smile. a happy day that i'd got (^^) met up with cel and sinhui at yishun to have breakfast together.after which went down to east coast to book e BBQ pit for e BBQ we will be having on 15dec!! heez -beams- we'd already planned out what to buy and what to do on that day!! xD after that took bus 13 then discovered that celine wasn't feeling well.so she sLept in e bus.she went off first while sinhui and me went to orchard to get her rubber band.ate kfc for lunch and went walking ard.saw so many nice clothes!! -nods nods- we're going shopping together end of this mth!! xD walked down to heeren and then went home.we shared so much on our way to orchard when we were in e train.hahas.we were so bless to have this friendship and we recalled how we came together. -smiLes- it was all so sweet. picked up babygirLx juz now at childcare.wow,children grew very fast eh? she is so much more clever! she knows how to speak porperly! so proud of her! (^^) but, she is also very mischivious.hahas. was watching e e-invitation for eyes finally see when i shed a tear.its gonna be a real touching cLiPz and e song is so nice! so peepz, bring visitors to e service! let them be touched by e cLiPz and by God's love =) listening to:: jie xia lai she fluttered at 8:28 PM |
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the tempo of the drum beats
is making my heart to beat faster. manx.this is like so early in a holiday morning! hahas.dragged myself to wake up cuz meeting cel and sinhui at like 9.30am? hMms...hAve to bathe in cold water cuz e heater is not working.well,i think i just have to improve in my attitude.i want to be a salt and light in my hse =) listening to "wo bu nan guo" now and e song is seriously nice nice...NICE!! -grins- ohhs.yeahx!! going east coast later...hahas.so happy! its been a long time that i visit.wOo...i'm so excited to attend music practise on thurs!! hahas! -looks at penguinnie- see the excitement? heez...! sadis that blogger cannot blog chinese characters =( listening to:: wo bu nan guo she fluttered at 8:40 AM |
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| Monday, November 17, 2003 |
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the tear that fell off my cheek
tells how much of my inner. sLept at only 4+am.though my eyes were closed,i guess my mind was still thinking abt some stuff.typed 7-8 sms-es to celine after we hang up and all she replied was "haha..no need to say so much.. I understand..=]" and she asked me a very stupid question.got woken up by my sister's call.supposing to fetch babygirLx to sch but then in e end my sister bring her go. -_____-"" i could have sLp later -rolls eyes- listening to:: fen xiang she fluttered at 9:56 AM |
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it was so nice
to stop and reminisce about our past. =) juz hang up phone with celine. -looks at time- nice 2.35am! hahas.and she gotto attend sch tmr at 8am!! -bwahahas- she's gonna be late for sure! we recalled alot of stuff that we'd done in e past.no,not our pri. sch but from last dec till now.it was such a nice talk that i didn't want to hang up.we recall abt e times when we were so scared of some stuff and those very nice moments when we hang out at far east, junction 8,esplanade with our fren.we were so amazed at how time brought us and we were commenting that all things had changed.it wasn't like how it used to be and we spent less time with our fren.i just feel like jotting down every bits of e conversation and i know sth that i'd not known all along which makes me a little heartbroken.but nvm,life will still goes on. well well,we really treasure e times when we were together =) how we wish that we'll be same like last time.really.we hope and looks for.celine really knows me inside out.every sighing,laughter,smiles,anger whatever you name it,she knows how i'm feeling in my inner.we also looked back how we were when we were younger then,how long we'd known each other.celine and me have known each other for like 5yrs?same to sinhui.char and sinhui have known each other for a gd 11yrs though when they were younger they don't really talk.but fate brought us 4 together.to do life and to encourage and lift each others up as we live our life.right now i just feel like lying on her shoulder and cry. cry out every inner bit of mine.yes,she knows why =) she reminded me of what true friendship were.it is when you haven't meet up for mths/yrs and when u gathered again,you'll start to tease each other,share e life and being comfortable with each other.this is what we call true friendship.char,cel and hui.there are much more to say in my inner than what i'd typed.and yes,i'll hold on this till the day we die(we'll meet each other in heaven) =)
listening to:: wo bu nan guo she fluttered at 2:51 AM |
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everything that has a beginning
has an end. -bahhs- i felt so lerthagic this afternoon and e way i dressed myself today.it was totally -blehh- i felt so -_____-"" and i told cel abt it...so we,e 2 girls, agreed that we need to do some SHOPPING!! *yeahness* end of this mth -chants on- went to nexus to do amendment together with nemo.then she gave some silly nickx to nicole and eelee -bwahahas- shan't say out.saw some ppl also..after amendment went walked ard and decided to go PS...walked ard and nemo suggested of watching movie.so we agreed on watching "wishing stairs".well well,we went up and down in PS...hahas.we took picx too~!! hahas.and yes,we also lost to e timing given to us. -bahhs- i cannot deny that i'm a pppiigz with e fact that i ate e whole chunk of popcorns! hahas.e show was nice and it does make me feel like screaming at a part.but NO,its not that scary.it was a bit scary.i mean A BIT.hahas.nemo's friend was in e same theatre as us.hahas.ohhs! -sigh- we sat so NEAR to e screen.3rd row from e front! how nice is that eh? penguinnie called me when i was in e bus and assured herself that i'll be attending music practise together with her! hahas.she've already asked me for thurs dinner.ohhs! tues going out with cel and sinhui to book e BBQ pit!! (^^) we're gonna spend e whole day OUTSIDE!! -beams beams- wed having class BBQ till thurs.then go down for CG and then meet penguinnie. so fast,my 1 week is over. listening to:: lan de qu guan she fluttered at 12:47 AM |
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| Sunday, November 16, 2003 |
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i will stay clear the line
and not be near to you anymore. -bahhs- i'm juz getting fatter fatter and fatter!! *suLks*. gotto have e determination to go exercise again! hahas.and this time its not gonna be 10rounds...maybe 12rounds... hahas! later meeting paLx to get my stuff at nexus...then got amendment... nemo coming late...but i think i'm reaching early...so can sLackz ard...hahas. -bahhs- why everyone is bugging me to play gunbound... -beams- yesterday eelee so funny...was with her and deb after WFL then i was singing some secular songs then she say "so unbiblical..." then she asked me who is e singer...i said sun yanzi...then she say "sing sing..." -bwahahas- she is so funny...hahas...WELL,at least there is supporters for sun yanzi!! ohhs... penguinnie called me yesterday and told me that i can go for this coming thurs music practise...yeahx~!! hehex...-bahhs-! one more to say...i saw YANYAN yesterday!! -beams beams- so happy to see her...heez...(^^) deleted some contacts in my MSN yesterday...shan't say who...but i don't know why...yesterday got e urge of doing so many stuff that i'd never wanted to do before...-sigh- listening to:: wo bu nan guo she fluttered at 11:21 AM |
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| Saturday, November 15, 2003 |
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ripped it off an emaiLz.
There once was a little girl who had a bad temper. Her mother gave her a bag of nails and told her that every time she lost her temper, she must hammer a nail into the back of the fence. The first day the girl had driven 37 nails into the fence. Over the next few weeks, as she learned to control her anger, the number of nails hammered daily gradually dwindled down. She discovered it was easier to hold her temper than to drive those nails into the fence. Finally the day came when the girl didn't lose her temper at all. She told her mother about it and the mother suggested that the girl now pull out one nail for each day that she was able to hold her temper. The days passed and the young girl was finally able to tell her mother that all the nails were gone. The mother took her daughter by the hand and led her to the fence. She said, "You have done well, my daughter, but look at the holes in the fence. The fence will never be the same. When you say things in anger, they leave a scar just like this one." You can put a knife in a person and draw it out. It won't matter how many times you say "I'm sorry", the wound is still there. A verbal wound is as bad as a physical one. Friends are very rare jewels, indeed. They make you smile and encourage you to succeed. They lend an ear, they share words of praise and they always want to open their hearts to us. she fluttered at 11:16 PM |
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maybe too much of attention is not good
especially if it'll cause mixed feelings. -bahhs- now i got quite a FEW mosquitos bite.got it all from AJ2's hse! hahas.but we did have a nice nice sLp on that big bed (^^) hehex...we went early to nexus.act. wanted to have breakfast at 1st floor...but i don't feel like eating so we went to breadtalk@PS to get sth to eat.then we went inside nexus and looked ard.hahas. both of us were like glued onto e seats when penguinnie asked us to go macs with her! hahas.but we went with her in e end.jacob led today's P&W.indeed his P&W is really different! (^^) hahas.today's service kick off with e song "fen xiang" by sky wu...it was -thumbs up!- nice nice xD e beginning part was so soothing and e entire song was so heartwarming...bringing me into deeper thinking of friendship...e video cLiPz made e auditorium ppl laugh! hahas.it was corny...esp. when cassian said "it is ticklish" and "is this fire cracker"!! -bwahahas- i went O_O...how can that BIG PENCIL look like fire cracker??!! -sighs- cassian ar...!! head home straight after service because was kind of tired and wasn't in e mood of going anywhere... *for AJ2 thankiex for e stay at yr hse! (^^) thankiex for e stuff you'd lent me(toothbrush, towel,SHOES(!!) -and the lists goes on-) xD listening to:: fen xiang she fluttered at 10:44 PM |
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| Friday, November 14, 2003 |
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AJs of the world unites.
*kekex* now at AJ2's hse! -bwahahas- she's exactly like me when i reach home...on e comp. and start chatting -blahh blahh blahh-...hahas.she's now talking on e phone becuz AJ1 is using e comp.!! -bwahahas- hmms...was out practically e whole day...went to bugis to search for e logistics and we(shiyan and me) found e cheapest logistics we could...hahas. after that we went to infront of seiyu and wanted to take bus 7,but guess what?! *wHaTz?!* we sat down at e bus-stop for 20mins and found out that there wasn't any bus service!! -bahhs- we went -______-"" and we went to another bus-stop...wanted to go RC but by e time i reached orchard,i decided not to...so i loitered 1+hr in orchard before meeting AJ2! saw angel working at PS and before that saw weisheng working at somerset there...saw yee at douby ghaut...i think he was with derry...*hmms* hahas... was sms-ing sinhui when i was at PS and she made me smile smile smile! heez...its nice to have her around me...hahas xD hahas.AJ2 is so happy over e dance class she attended juz now...she said that abt -counts finger- 3 times? or even MORE!
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| Thursday, November 13, 2003 |
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i wish for myself to be like little children
who believes everything with a simple faith. i wish my hands to strum down the strings like how i want it to be. i wish for a different love in my life, a love that i'd never experienced before. but if i can't get the above, i just wish for one thing, that is to be with You forever. she fluttered at 11:30 PM |
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| Wednesday, November 12, 2003 |
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-bahhs- i'm feeling so LAME now!! aj2 juz taught me sth which makes me go ard making ppl...hahas!
anyway,today i did my 10ROUNDS! *cheers* hahas.sorry L2! didn't play soccer... heez...had a fun time talking to linda while jogging though x) after that returned back to RC and started watching holland village! hahas.louis they all supposed to play RISK! but once e TV was on,their eyes were glued onto e screen! -bwahahas- left RC after e show and i met amanda when i reached yishun interchange! wOoaHz...she changed aLOT manx! she slim down and she became prettier! hehex...but she is still that nice friend i've known for like e last 2 yrs of my pri. sch? heez...she's a sweet little babe though *wiNkz* and i believe within a mth's time i'll receive an sms from her of gathering together which might include pris,yuan ping...hahas.ohhs,yuan ping's studies improved tremendously! wOoaHz...!! *cLaPz* hMms...next week's chalet have been changed to BBQ...heez...wonder who will be tonning...hahas! but i know that vanda was SUPER sian when she know that chalet had been a LITTLE modified to BBQ! hahas... nvm.tmr having p6 party! heez...leading games together with lunnie.feeling a little excited cuz first time leading games in a party! hehex...xD listening to:: kai shi dong le she fluttered at 11:53 PM |
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this entry is for AJ2!
AJ2!! hahas.wanna watch "wishing stairs" ?! hehex... x) reply me when i'm online ar. hahas... she fluttered at 12:12 PM |
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manx.i can't believe that for not exercising for a week++ i'll fall sick. -sighs- fever is on off on off...and then my giddy is also on off on off! -blehh- shall start exercising again! hehex.later having soccer cg which is...gd! hahas.before that going jogging with rain! yes, 10ROUNDS! hahas.that's e minimum for me x) having lunch with my parents then meet cel to pass things then travel down for cg. well,yesterday i woke up to give my mum e necklace i'd bought and chat with my fren.telling how much i would want to spend my next tuesday whole day to be out! i just got e feel...yes,e FEEL! hmms,just now was trying to plan out my next week timetable when i realise that i can only plan for monday! -bahhs- i know tuesday i'm going out.but i'm not sure it'll be whole day or juz a few hrs. however, how i wish it'll take up e WHOLE day.but then again,i've no idea will there be any chalet next week. -sighs- i wish there will be.heez...! -bahhs- feel like taking some paint and start painting.but well,time constrain! x( she fluttered at 10:56 AM |
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| Tuesday, November 11, 2003 |
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ripped some off seafood's blog.
"When someone loves you, the way they say your name is different. You know that your name is safe in their mouth." Billy - age 4 "Love is what makes you smile when you're tired." Terri - age 4 "There are two kinds of love. Our love. God's love. But God makes both kinds of them."Jenny - age 8 "Love is like a little old woman and a little old man who are still friends even after they know each other so well." Tommy - age 6 "My mommy loves me more than anybody. You don't see anyone else kissing me to sleep at night." Clare - age 6 "Love is when your puppy licks your face even after you left him alone all day." Mary Ann - age 4 "When you love somebody, your eyelashes go up and down and little stars come out of you." Karen - age 7 "You really shouldn't say 'I love you' unless you mean it. But if you mean it, you should say it a lot. People forget." Jessica - age 8 went out with char to study today! hahas.i completed 90% of my maths paper! yeahx (^^) e first time completing my holidays hmw! hahas xD was freezing cold in macs then...luckily there is always fren to lend me clothes! -bwahahas- went to j8 to buy a necklace for my mum and went to watch "the park" well well,e show is lame + dumb! -sigh- but somehow,it was touching towards e ending part.but THEN,e show is NOT nice...e 3D are NOT of 3D at all! -blehh- nvm. went walked ard then and bought a pair of shorts...heez...so nice manx~ ahahas. ohh,having soccer cg tmr! how nice is that? hehex...can exercise too! *wiNkz* peeps,if u have friendster,add me manx! hahas! xD listening to:: wo bu nan guo she fluttered at 8:36 PM |
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(^^) went kbox today with hui,leng and vanda.hahas. hMms...all i know was sun yanzi's and jay chou's song...hahas.so i sang very little...but nvm...i enjoy though! hehex.and we took lots of picx...but not very clear. was late for meeting...but i learnt how to be more serious in meeting.hahas.was abit feverish at e end of e meeting...but was kind of better after e prayers =) didn't have shepherding in e end though cuz a bit feverish...so went home...on e bus was thinking alot of stuff.so e ride seems very smooth.hahas (",)
listening to:: nan de yi jian she fluttered at 12:05 AM |
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| Sunday, November 09, 2003 |
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last night i looked up to the sky and saw the stars,
they were shining so brightly and sweetly. then i was reminded of the times we were together, the times when i enjoyed the most. but now,tell me, where have the moment gone to? she fluttered at 4:12 PM |
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you came by
and make me unsure of my decision. but i thank you for that. e decorations that e deco team put up was definitely -thumbs up!- i love! i love! hehex. oOhs...was giving paLx a BIG BIG smiLe when she was playing! ahahas... xD service taught me lots of things and make me understand lots of stuff.and it did let me see e other side of some ppl.hahas.after that went starhub and walked ard with aj2...until paLx came and we had dinner together! hehex.after that went to buy stuff with her and on e way shared some stuff with her.dropped by POA@paragon too.and i'm thinking if e person cheated me alot...-sigh- sad...don't wanna say.supposed to stay over at RC together with deb but she have some stuff to do...so i follow eelee they all...had a gd time talking to eelee too =) learn stuff from from -smiLes- manx! i ate aLOT!! *boohoohoo* nvm...tmr going to jog after seed meet! hahas.tmr morning going kbox with kh,leng, and vanda! hahas -looking forward- gonna bring digital camera!! hahas. ohhs!! my lamp still at germs hse! hahas. listening to:: yu jian she fluttered at 12:42 PM |
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| Saturday, November 08, 2003 |
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Along life's road
There will be sunshine and rain Roses and thorns, laughter and pain And 'cross the miles You will face mountains so steep Deserts so long and valleys so deep Sometimes the Journey's gentle Sometimes the cold winds blow But I want you to remember I want you to know You will never walk alone As long as you have faith Jesus will be right beside you all the way You may feel you're far from home But home is where He is And He'll be there down every road You will never walk alone The path will wind And you will find wonders and fears Labors of love and a few falling tears Across the years There will be some twists and turns Mistakes to make and lessons to learn Sometimes the journey's gentle Sometimes the cold winds blow But I want you to remember where ever you may go Jesus knows your joy, Jesus knows your need He will go the distance with you faithfully she fluttered at 11:24 AM |
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| Friday, November 07, 2003 |
had a chat with char juz now.hahas.manx~ i muz say that this friendship that we'd hold on for 7yrs,close to 8yrs wasn't in vain.i juz have to say one sentence and she know what and how i'm thinking inside.and she was right,i'm being playful now. probably is because this is our age of experiencing changes that's why.hahas.well,i juz wanna say that she had been a great great buddyz to me! always gives me a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on.not forgetting e other 3 -beams- gonna organize a BBQ...it is something that sinhui have been looking forward too! don't wanna disappoint her! (^^) now asking her to go out on tuesday!! heez...wanted to ton overnight but forgotten that she got sch e next day~ poor girLx. listening to:: qing tian (jay chou)
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How can you see into my eyes like open doors.
Leading you down into my core Where I've become so numb. Without a soul;my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold until you find it there and lead it back home. she fluttered at 4:54 PM |
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-sighs- my blog is getting uglier because e absence of e picx on e LEFT hand side! >___<
hmms,yesterday was a TIRING day for me!! -blehh- went out in e early morning to get some stuff from my fren... but while waiting for my fren,i saw 2 cats... hahas. shan't elaborate =x then went to evax at anderson pri.after that went for cg and was practically lazing ard for abt an hr plus.left cg at 4.20pm cuz meeting irene they all at yishun to go SAS(singapore american school) for match. hahas.e match was nice.at least i did sth that i've nv dare to do before.but manx, gotto tell u that e girLs are really TALL! well,i'm sHORT!! -blehh- then after that met up with pretty at admiralty and hahas,for ONCE,she was punctual! ran all e way to paragon cuz it was 9pm already...i need to change e shirt. while running out of somerset station,i called up them and they say they've closed, despite that i'd made earlier phone call that i'm going down and they say okay! manx,i was irritated by that time...but after awhile they called me back and i ran ALL THE WAY.nv had i ran like that before manx~ hahas.saw raymond which i didn't expect...hahas.it was his birthday too xD so said a "happy birthday" and went off. -bwahahas- know what? my heart was practically pumping faster than ever when i called up POA @ paragon cuz e shirt color they gave me was wrong! -blehh- listening to:: i feel like i'm falling she fluttered at 12:22 PM |
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| Thursday, November 06, 2003 |
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i love the smile.
-sigh- the photos are ugly!! *suLks* sad sad...can never turn back the time again to take.
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| Wednesday, November 05, 2003 |
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i'll surprise you
with all that i could. how come my hands is so cold? how come my heart is pumping so fast?! -shrugs- i dunno =/ hmms...was on e way to RC this morning when i feel a sense of urgency. urgency for studies,ministry.ohh...i'm juz gonna work very hard for my next 2 yrs.NOT gonna let myself dOWN!
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it was simple.
but i love it. -beams beams- xP what a wonderful day i had! (^^) -lalala- first went to heeren to get a scroll and then to citylink and browsed ard and settled down with 2 sheets of A4 color paper with a pen and a envelope.met aunt alice while i was walking to "flash and splash" that direction.she didn't recognized me...hahas. supposed to meet rei at yck to get e digital camera but she FORGOTTEN that she was to meet me!! i'm like..."how can she forget?!" hahas.so went to causeway straight and hahas.i didn't wait for too long before e first siMpsOnx pppiigz arrived; sinhui.waited for char and cel.don't need to guess anymore and you'll know who is late -bwahahas- then went macs and had our meals... had a nice catch up!! xD -nods nods- then went shop ard...we took NEOPRINTS!! yeahx.it might be common but it was rare for us to take TOGETHER!! *wiNkz* it was NICE!! -nods nods- -lalala- i'm super happy!! hahas.but e machine did freak us out a little and cel was practically covering her eyes for e very first shOT!! -bwahahas- i love! i love! i love the picx! (^^) after that went for games meeting and was laughing and laughing...hahas.ohhs,and i've MORE things to do!! ^___^ gotto sort out e logistic things once sarah send me. hmms...tmr morning going jogging!! else i'm juz growing fatter and fatter!! NO!! -shakes head- ohhs,tmr having class at RC too! (^^) see you guys ard...xD gotto go write some stuff and prepare for tmr!! xD
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| Tuesday, November 04, 2003 |
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-bwahahas- didn't expect to wake up in e early morning and start chatting at ard 8+am...juz asked my fren some question and intend to go back to sLp... then audrey start to chat with me so i chat lorr.hahas.chat for abt 3+hrs already...now conferencing with leow too.he crap larr.hmms...so sad i got no money...else i'll do a online shopping at adidas webby.so much nice stuff!! -eyes sparkle- not only that.but their price quite resonable too...1 nice jacket $55.then e shoe also $55!! -sigh- nvm...i can always do shopping at adidas shop during dec!! (^^) with siMpsOnx gang~!! hehex... hmms...going out in 1hr's time i think...heading down to heeren first then to city link i guess.meeting my dear rei rei to take digital camera and then heading down to causeway... wahh.my day so pack eh?! having games meeting at cck...7pm.heez...this week so pack!! but nvm...its a joy ^____^
listening to:: come home running she fluttered at 11:16 AM |
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| Monday, November 03, 2003 |
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i wish for you to be beside me
when i shed silent tears. e game that we played during seed really makes me laugh! didn't expect myself to throw e cushion at dc's head.well,all i could say is "sorry" hahas.but dc, it does make everyone laugh right?so a little sacrifice of e spiky head don't hurt -bwahahas- another victim was ian.hitted him twice.first time was when he entered into RC.and e other time was i mistook e place he sat as xt's place.after cg404,went to mcs for shepherding and saw a china couple quarrelled.it does irritates me.tmr not having any trainings.meeting siMpsOnx they all 3pm at causeway breadtalk...before that heading down to city hall to buy some stuff...xD
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this moment,we know that we've grown. we came so far and we experienced so much. the times we give headaches to the people around us. and now,we've to bid goodbye to some. but,we'll never forget each other. she fluttered at 1:02 PM |
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| Sunday, November 02, 2003 |
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from a portion from vanda's emaiLz.
"now every sec seems like 1 hr...it has been a part of my life le..i cant juz let go easily... yupyupz.... anyway...u all are really sum1 very special to mi..i rather lose sum1 i love than to lose all my best frens...." nvm abt e errors in the content.juz this email melts my heart.it comprises of e thousand and millions feelings she's feeling deep within.vanda, don't worry,we'll not forget you =) -nods nods- -hugs vanda- she fluttered at 11:33 PM |
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hmms...act. i wasn't able to blog now.started busying ard yesterday nitex after keying in stats and will only be able to rest well from wed onwards? heez...e whole of today i was uploading e picx.there were so MANY of them... but well, i'm so happy that it turned out well.thanks to piggyx who taught me how to do e linking part xD so peeps,go to "memories" to view e photos okays? and i wanna say that 3deovtion'03 rawks to e core!! e picx were all so so nice~!!
=) went lau pa sat juz now with my dad and mum to have dinner!! *yums* e food so nice...hahas.think i've grown FAT these few days.. -shakes head- i've gotto exercise even more!! -nods nods- hmms,was chatting with leng this afternoon and yes,we're gonna study during e holidays!! to prepare for next yr very 1st week's common test...if flung it we can say bye to our 'N' level exams...cuz "our principal means business", ms tan told us this...and it has been in my HEAD! -breathes- so tired...have to redesign e invitation card for this coming fri's p6 party.wanna do a gd job *wiNkz* -muhahas- can see that sin hui is really excited for e BBQ at east coast...she's meeting us on tues lunch time to discuss... hahas.and yes,i'm looking forward to e lunch that e 4 of us gonna have!! -beams- ohhs!! was so happy to chat with audrey juz now on MSN -bwahahas- and i was her operator...helped her sent her greetings to her friends in sg.and audrey,if you're reading this now,wanna tell u to take care of yrself over there at hk!! -hugs drey- xD she fluttered at 11:27 PM |
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| Saturday, November 01, 2003 |
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ripped off from a emaiLz.
Winds move through pushing leaves clouds run to cover the sky and darkness follows her like a pet there are no shadows and this is timelessness lair of the cloud faces and I can see only as far as I have traveled I close my eyes And drift into a dream remembrance Precious moments retreat into memories Becoming subdued sculpted images blending into nothingness Breathing erratic gusts of flickering thoughts Filaments of emotional traumas Twined into the fabric of my life Who can see into my eyes like open doors leading way down into my core. Without a soul; my spirit's sleeping somewhere cold, until you find it there and lead it back home. she fluttered at 11:20 PM |
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O_O now is 7.29am! i'm early for sat when there's NO training and when i don't have to reach nexus early! hahas.yesterday went to play pool with cel at yishun safra.char supposed to come along but she said she feel giddy and so she went home.cel was saying me that i nv utilise their facilities there...cuz normally i juz go there for swimming...nv explore...hahas.anyway,we managed to play 8 and a half rounds...hahas.and we DRAW! "!@#$" last round not enough of time... hahas. well well,she really does concern abt FOOD! cuz after playing pool she kept asking what we gonna eat...-blehh- bought food and went home cuz mummy and babygirLx is at home...then she watched "huan zhu ge ge" part 1 which makes me wanna sLeePz...so i sLePt and she did all e changing of disc by herself...and she left my hse at 11pm? heez... that's what a buddyz does rite? do everything by herself...hahas.so after locking e doors i went back to sLp again until this morning...
n0w quite h0ok on to "friendster"...but seems like my testimonies very LITTLE lehh. -blehh- so if you guys have friendster,add me..."musicgirlx@hotmail.com" and leave yr msg for me~!! xD *last day in class 3 devotion well well,i think it was one of e best "last day" i'd ever experienced in my 3yrs studies in phs.we bought drinks and tibits though only a part of e class ate it... hahas. went 3devotion2 and took LOTs of photos...and i really enjoy e presence of you guys...really makes me laugh and brightens up my day (^^) yee came back and everyone was like "white chicken came back!!" and actions were like "jason! take photo!" hahas...like he is a superstar like that...but he very fun manx~!! and we took photos with ms tan and ms kang...ms tan HORR, hold my hands and stopped me from doing some funny stuff above her head!! nOt fair...but nvm...cuz leng and pearlyn also gOt do~!! hahas...and ppl shed tears again for those who is gonna leave us...sad that ter couldn't join us else its gonna be fUn manx~!! but i think he is very optimistic... but know what? yesterday i dreaMt that those who were supposed to leave us were allowed to stay and study in school again...hMms... listening to:: can't deny she fluttered at 7:42 AM |
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+ BBQ + careleaders + coreteam + courageous camp + dangers! + evax day + faith camp + family + kbox + match at sas + moments + neb + siMpsOnx + soccer cg + steamboat + teachers' day + 17-05-03 + 05-11-03 + 08-11-03 + 3devotion'03 |
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+ aaron + ah xiao + AJ2 + amelia + cheow hong + chen pei + cherie + chew yee + clarence + debbie + dehui + ding cheun + eelee + ethan + esther + evelyn + germs + gwen + huixin + ian + irene + jacob + jaime + janis + jason + jeremy + jessie + jian cong + jia shen + joanne + joel + junhuang + junxiong + kokok + lausanne + linda + lisin + meiyan + puay + qian jin + ray + rain + reagan + ron + ruichen + ruth + samantha + sean + sheralyn + shi hui + shila + shirley + sophia + wynnie + timothy + valneo + wendeline + xiuhui + yanyan + yihui 
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+ guitarjia + musicgirLx 2003 + july + august + september + october + november + december 2004 + january |
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i want to lift my eyes and see the plans You have for me to share Your dreams for this reveal to me i want to know You more and more to be Your bright and shining star so that in my life i'll do what You will do take my hands and hold me near reveal to me Your plan i'll make it all become a part of me all i have belongs to You this hands i lift to You Lord, let Your Word watch over me show me Lord each and every day the best i can ever be for when i'm found in You that lay me at Your truth that's when my eyes they finally see |
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